For many years, I lived my life detached.
My dreams and my reality mismatched.
I dreamed of being loved like other kids.
But unfulfilled, neglected were my needs.
Abused, I was enduring cruel trauma.
My life at home was filled with daily drama.
To cope, I disconnected and detached.
Even to my own body I was not attached.
Six years of healing – and I’m living fully!
Enjoying life I’m deeply, greatly, truly…
I love my life, my health, my home, my friends…
Though with my past I’m still making amends.
I feel so much, so deeply, and so strongly!
I easily cry when treated I am wrongly.
When I’m rejoicing, it is also deep.
When grieving, I intensely weep.
I find true joy in spending time in nature.
A simple hike for me is best adventure.
I get excited standing on my head.
Fully alive, I am no longer dead!
I find true pleasure in a simple salad.
That’s why I cherish cooking as my talent.
I love kayaking and observing beavers.
I value leisure time on nearby rivers.
When I drink tea, my joy is felt intensely!
Each bite of food impacts my soul immensely!
I‘m happily jumping on the trampoline!
I love to swim and read and cook and clean…
When talking to my friends, I love to listen.
I ask good questions and I watch them glisten.
All people matter very much to me.
I am alive and here I’m glad to be!
When at the beach, I run barefoot for miles.
I talk with strangers, sharing cries and smiles…
I’m present when I’m writing, painting, driving…
Fully alive, today, I’m finally thriving!
Fully alive, I am engaged and present.
My interactions with reality are pleasant.
It’s not to say that life is unicorns and rainbows,
But I enjoy my life from all its angles!
Anna Szabo #PoemsFromGod