Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?

Have you ever asked yourself (I hope NOT) about your own decisions “Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?” Have you wondered about someone you know “Are Christians Who Commit Suicide Condemned To Hell?” Today, I will share my personal perspective. I will speak from my own experience.

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This blog post took much courage to write. The only reason why I’m actually publishing this article is because God put it on my heart to share with you. The issue of suicide is extremely sensitive. Suicide is personal to me.

I am a two-times suicide survivor.

This ministry, Online Discipleship For Women, was founded when I myself was recovering from suicidal depression. The purpose of my ministry is to help alleviate suicide among women globally by sharing hope in Christ.

Just to make it clear: this entire ministry is one-person labor. I, Anna Szabo, established this ministry in 2017, built this website with my two hands, and wrote over 1,000,000 words of content to help encourage and empower women with the truth of the Gospel.

READ: How To Trust God When Everything Is Going Wrong

My goal is to help my community create a joyful life by embracing God’s word. God gave us His 3,573 promises, and there’s much encouragement and empowerment to be found in His word.

However, God never told us that life will be rainbows and unicorns. He said we will have troubles through which we must persevere and seek comfort from Him, grow in faith, mature, and lean on the Lord, not on our own understanding of life and its circumstances.

And though the Lord give you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your Teacher will not hide himself anymore, but your eyes shall see your Teacher.

Isaiah 30:20

God Himself gives us adversity and affliction to help us persevere, draw close to Him, and mature in our faith.

In recent years, the Christian community has been molding the word of God, the Gospel of truth, to fit the need and the demand of people for comfort. And I mean worldly comfort. people want to hear about God what feels good.

People want to believe in the Santa Clause God.

We are so addicted to comfort food, comfort binge-watching of meaningless shows, and comfort thinking, we expect to fit God into our expectations. We tell Him what we want, He must obey us, and then we believe in Him.

That is not what God teaches us about Himself through His word, aka the Bible, aka the teachings of Jesus Christ, aka the Gospel.

It’s important to me to talk about this topic because every time I read an article with the title “Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?” or “Can a Christian Commit Suicide?” or “Are Christians Who Commit Suicide Condemned To Hell?” what I find is comfort.

Comfort won’t help us honor God.

We must seek Him.

We must search for the truth.

Let’s examine the actual truth together.

Are Christians Who Commit Suicide Condemned To Hell?

If we truly want to follow Christ, we must prioritize God’s truth and not people’s comfort. I know if you’re reading this and you lost someone to suicide, you may be offended by my words. Please don’t be. My goal is not to offend or hurt you.

What I committed my life to do is make the Gospel practical and applicable to your daily experiences. I’m not here to bend the word of God to make myself sound likable. I am not here to fit in.

I am here to encourage faith.

READ: What Is Faith?

I am here to share the Gospel, the teachings of Jesus Christ, which are all freely accessible in the Bible, aka God-breathed word.

Many articles I read on the topics such as “Does Suicide Lead To Hell?” or “Will Suicide Send Someone To Hell?” or “If You Commit Suicide, Can You Go To Heaven?” have been written by either funeral preachers who get paid to comfort the relatives of those lost to suicide or by the widows of pastors who shot themselves in the head.

I understand that we all need spiritual comforting.

But let it come from the truthful promises of God, not from the Santa Clause God of our imagination. Let us not deceive ourselves by staying in the comfort zone simply because the truth of our actual sovereign and just God is too painful.

In my recent blog Christian Prayers for Health, I shared for the first time the list of active-duty pastors who committed suicide, and it shocked my readers. The truth is this: suicide is all-inclusive and non-discriminating.

Suicide is a growing issue among pastors.

That is why in the last few years there’s been a volume of articles written on topics such as “Do Christians Who Commit Suicide Still Go To Heaven?” and “Does Suicide Equal Hell?

All of the articles talk about God’s unconstitutional love and endless grace and how God doesn’t condemn Christians to hell.

It’s comforting to say this. It makes you likable.

But is it scriptural?

When pastors shoot themselves in the head inside their homes and churches and the community puts articles out there how it’s ok to do and they still go to heaven, this is a dangerous and very obvious permission to many others to get a ticket out of the hardships of life and kill themselves too. Everyone’s life sometimes rocks and sometimes sucks.

Yet, life was given to us by God, and He told us what to do with it. God told us to endure adversity, lean on Him, not our worldly understanding, and He also told us that life won’t be filled with rainbows and unicorns but that we will have troubles.

My ministry is committed to helping alleviate suicide among women globally by sharing hope in Christ. When religious leaders shoot themselves in the head from despair and they are justified in the eyes of the community, their suicide is explained by mental health struggles, and they are assigned to heaven by mere humans, it only encourages more people to commit suicide instead of having hope in Christ.

I can’t be silent.

Christian Pastors Who Died By Suicide

Below is a list of active-duty pastors who committed suicide in just a few recent years with a self-inflicted gunshot to the head. Each name is linked to the story of that Christian pastor’s suicide.

All of the pastors mentioned below were preaching, serving on community boards, counseling their congregations, then, within hours of preaching or right before it, killed themselves with a single self-inflicted gunshot wound either at their homes or inside their churches.

Pastors Who Shot Themselves In The Head

  1. Pastor DB Antrim of Westwind Church
  2. Pastor Letsego of Christ Embassy Church
  3. Pastor Andrew Stoecklein of Inland Hills 
  4. Pastor Teddy Parker of Bibb Mount Zion Baptist Church
  5. Pastor Isaac Hunter of Summit Church
  6. Pastor Ed Montgomery of Full Gospel Christian Assemblies International Church
  7. Pastor David Huskins of the Cedar Lake Christian Center
  8. Pastor Jim Howard of the Real Life Church
  9. Pastor Jarrid Wilson of Harvest Christian Fellowship

Does Suicide Lead To Hell?

It’s important to remember that we, humans, don’t condemn someone to or redeem them from hell. We have no authority to decide where a person spends eternity. I can’t decide that, you can’t decide that, your pastor can’t decide it, no one but God decides that.

When you pay a pastor to perform a memorial service, you do expect comfort from him, and he knows it, so he says comforting things to comfort you. Also, religious leaders, who want to grow churches and don’t want to turn people off, say comforting things to comfort their people.

It’s understandable. We are all human.

We want to be liked, accepted, and popular.

Here, on my blog, there’s no one paying me for funerals. I am not growing any churches. I have no board to which I must report on what God and I discuss. I don’t need to be liked by anyone or comply with anyone’s opinions. I am completely free to tell you the truth that God put on my heart, though I do understand that it will cause me to lose some friends.

This is a blog about faith in Christ. I’m here to serve Jesus.

READ: Who Is Jesus?

When deciding how to best share with you my perspective from my conversations with God on the topic “Does Suicide Lead To Hell?” I realized that if I talk about anyone but myself, it may sound extremely offensive.

So, let me answer some questions related to the topic “Do Christians Who Commit Suicide Still Go To Heaven?” only in the first person.

I will share my perspective as it relates to my own suicidal ideation, me personally contemplating suicide, and what would happen to me if I killed myself. Let’s discuss “Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?

READ: My Suicide Story

I want you to ponder what I share before you get offended. Instead of getting angry, think about why you clicked on this blog post: do you want comfort or truth?

If you’re here for comfort, don’t read further.

Click away. You will not find any comfort in my words. But I will offer you the truth from the word of God, which is the sacred book of all the answers to all of our questions, including “Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?

We know that we have come to know him if we keep his commands. Whoever says, “I know him,” but does not do what he commands is a liar, and the truth is not in that person. But if anyone obeys his word, love for God is truly made complete in them. This is how we know we are in him: Whoever claims to live in him must live as Jesus did.

1 John 2:3-6

Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?

Will I Still Go To Heaven If I Commit Suicide?

The common misconception is that if I was baptized and went to church, then no matter what I do, I go to heaven. But only those who are righteous go to heaven.

So, what makes a person righteous?

“You see that a person is considered righteous by what they do and not by faith alone.” – James 2:24

Is suicide an act of righteous doing?


So, if I were to kill myself, I would not be viewed by God as righteous.

The article “Heaven Is Not a Default Destination” shares the poll recently conducted in the US, which found that for every American who believes they’ll go to hell, there re 120 Americans who believe they will go to heaven.

“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.” – Matthew 7:13-14

Will I still go to heaven if I commit suicide? Let’s ponder this together.

Suicide is not an act of faith, it is the opposite of trust in Jesus Christ.

My suicide would indicate that Jesus is not my Lord because had I considered Him my Lord, I’d abide by His teachings.

My suicide would indicate that Jesus is not my savior because had I considered Him my savior, I’d lean on His saving grace, not attempt to rescue myself from the worldly overwhelm by committing suicide.

“What good is it, my brothers, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can that faith save him? You see that a person is justified by works and not by faith alone.” – James 2:14-26

Is suicide the kind of work that is the act of faith in Christ? No.

Would I be justified if I committed suicide? No.

So, will I still go to heaven if I commit suicide?

No, according to the written word of God.

Can a Christian Commit Suicide?

First, we must define a “Christian.” I wrote extensively on the difference between knowing Jesus vs knowing the Bible. I also explained in detail on this blog the difference between having faith in Christ vs being a habitual religious person who lives the convenient lifestyle of habitual Christianity.

A Christian is a person who gave her life to Christ, who loves Jesus and follows His commandments out of gratitude for her salvation.

“If you love me, you will keep my commandments.” – John 14:15

If I were to commit suicide, does it indicate my commitment to keeping Christ’s commandments and loving Him? No.

My suicide would indicate that I do not love Jesus.

“Those who accept my commandments and obey them are the ones who love me. And because they love me, my Father will love them.” – John 14:21

Will the Father love me if I do not love Jesus?

No, according to the written word of God.

If suicide is an indication of a lack of love for Jesus and the reason why God will not love me if I were to commit suicide, would I be called a Christian?


So, a Christian can’t commit suicide because whoever commits suicide is not a Christian.

Are Christians Who Commit Suicide Condemned To Hell?

A Christian is a person who gave her life to Christ, who loves Jesus and follows His commandments out of gratitude for her salvation.

Let’s define who is condemned to hell and who goes to heaven.

Hell is mentioned 167 times in the Bible, sometimes called Gehenna, Hades, the pit, the Abyss, or everlasting punishment: Proverbs 7:27Luke 8:31Luke 10:152 Thessalonians 1:9.

Jesus spoke of heaven and hell as real places: Matthew 13:41–42Matthew 23:33Mark 9:43–47Luke 12:5.

Heaven is the dwelling place of God (2 Chronicles 30:27) where Jesus has gone to “prepare a place” for those who love Him (John 14:2).

Hell was created for “the devil and his angels” (Matthew 25:41).

So, who can go to heaven?

Those who are born again.

Jesus replied, “Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.” – John 3:3

Who, then, goes to hell?

He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of his might. – 2 Thessalonians 1:8-9

How is it decided and by whom who goes to heaven and who goes to hell?

Then Jesus said, “Those people will be punished forever. But the ones who pleased God will have eternal life.” – Matthew 25:46

So, people don’t decide on this.

Pastors and religious leaders have no authority to decide on this. God decides, and He doesn’t keep His word a secret from us.

God sent His only son to us with one and only purpose – to communicate His will for us to us.

God’s will is revealed is the Bible, the word of God where we should be searching for the answers to such questions as “Are Christians Who Commit Suicide Condemned To Hell?

Christians do not commit suicide because those who do not love and obey Jesus Christ are not Christians. Committing suicide is the opposite of obedience to Jesus or love for Him.

If I were to commit suicide, it would indicate that I did not surrender myself to Jesus as my Lord and Savior, that I am not a Christian, that I do not have the right standing with God, and, consequently, Jesus did not prepare a place for me in heaven where only those who love Him go.

Consequently, if I were to commit suicide, I would be condemned to hell, according to the word of God.

Does Suicide Lead To Hell?

The Bible tells us that our body is the temple where the Holy Spirit dwells and if anyone destroys God’s sacred temple, God will destroy them.

“Do you not know that you are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit dwells in you? If anyone destroys God’s temple, God will destroy him. For God’s temple is holy, and you are that temple.” – 1 Corinthians 3:16-17

So, to answer the question “Does Suicide Lead To Hell?” we must ask ourselves: “Will I be saved by God if I kill myself and with such an act destroy His sacred temple for the Holy Spirit?”

No, according to the written word of God.

So, if I commit suicide and God will not save, He won’t send me to heaven. Consequently, He will send me to hell.

Hense, yes, suicide leads to hell.

Will Suicide Send Someone To Hell?

Yes, suicide leads to hell.

There’s a common misconception that going to church, knowing the Bible, and preaching to others leads to salvation.

However, the Bible itself testifies that anyone who knows the Bible, preaches to others what to do, yet doesn’t do that, doesn’t obey the word of God, can be condemned to hell for eternity.

“I discipline my body like an athlete, training it to do what it should. Otherwise, I fear that after preaching to others I myself might be disqualified.” – 1 Corinthians 9:27

So, to expand on the question “Will Suicide Send Someone To Hell?” and add to it “even if they were a pastor and preached to large congregations” or, in my case, if I had a Christian blog, Christian podcast, Christian book I wrote, and I told everyone how much I love Jesus?

Will I go to hell if I commit suicide?

Yes, according to the written word of God.

If You Commit Suicide Can You Go To Heaven?

Heaven is a place prepared by Jesus Christ for believers.

Whoever has the Son has life; whoever does not have the Son of God does not have life.  1 John 5:12 

So, who has the Son? Whoever loves Him.

Jesus said, “If you love me, you will keep my commandments” (John 14:15). And the apostle John echoed Jesus when he wrote, “This is the love of God, that we keep his commandments” (1 John 5:3).

The act of suicide is against the teachings of Jesus. Committing suicide leads to committing a crime against the sacred and holy temple of God’s Spirit. It indicates the lack of love for Jesus.

If I were to commit suicide, it would indicate that I do not love Jesus, do not “have the Son,” consequently, I would not have eternity in heaven.

So, to answer, “If You Commit Suicide Can You Go To Heaven?“, the word of God shows us that the Biblical response to this is a no.

Does Suicide Equal Hell?

Yes, suicide equals hell because it indicates a lack of love for and trust in Jesus. Only believers, those who gave their lives to Christ, go to heaven. The love for Jesus is proved by abiding by His teachings, including: do not kill (aka do not kill yourself).

If I believe in Jesus, I do not destroy my body, which is His temple. If I destroy my body, the sacred and holy temple where God’s Spirit dwells, it means I do not believe in Jesus.

“Whoever believes in Him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe has already been condemned, because he has not believed in the name of God’s one and only Son.” – John 3:18

Do Christians Who Commit Suicide Still Go To Heaven?

Christians are those who love and obey Jesus. Love and obedience are demonstrated through actions. Suicide is not an action demonstrating love for Christ or obedience to His teachings.

Consequently, my suicide would indicate that I am not a Christian. A Christian, by definition, can’t commit suicide.

The article “How Can We Know We’ll Go To Heaven?” explains the following:

“To sin means to fall short of God’s holy standards. Sin is what ended paradise in the Garden of Eden. And all of us, like Adam and Eve, are sinners. “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God” (Rom. 3:23). Sin separates us from a relationship with God (Isaiah 59:2) and it deceives us and makes us think that wrong is right and right is wrong (Prov. 14:12). Sin has terrible consequences, but God has provided a solution: “For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Rom. 6:23).”

Jesus is the only way to heaven. It’s a narrow way.

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. – John 14:6

God sent Jesus to teach us how to live, how to be, how to have relationships, how to deal with adversity, and how to endure hardships. Jesus, the Son of God, became fully man to deliver to us the will of God.

For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me. – John 6:38

So, to answer the questions “Do Christians Who Commit Suicide Still Go To Heaven?” here it is: if I were to commit suicide, by such an act I would reject Jesus, I would prove a lack of faith in my heart, and consequently, I would not go to heaven.

I would go to hell.

Conclusion: Do Christians Who Commit Suicide Still Go To Heaven?

Do Christians who commit suicide still go to heaven? According to the word of God, no. Also, according to the definition of a Christian, committing suicide is an indication of not being a Christian because the only indication of being a Christian is following Christ, with actions, not just words.

He will punish those who do not know God and do not obey the gospel of our Lord Jesus. They will be punished with everlasting destruction and shut out from the presence of the Lord and from the glory of His might.

2 Thessalonians 1:8-9

Preaching the Gospel and telling people what to do does not make me a Christian. Obeying God’s word makes me a Christian. Genuine love for Christ makes me a Christian. I must walk the walk, not just talk the talk.

If I commit suicide and destroy my body, which is not my own but God’s temple where His Spirit dwells, then I would commit a crime against God, I would not be in the right standing with God, and He would not view me as covered by the blood of Jesus, because only those who genuinely believe in Jesus, wholeheartedly, are covered by His blood.

Before publishing this blog post, I texted my friend. I told her that God put this topic on my heart, yet I was fearful. I didn’t want to write on this controversial topic but God always wins, and here’s this blog post.

But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after your body has been killed, has authority to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him.

Luke 12:5

Answering the questions “If You Commit Suicide Can You Go To Heaven?” is not exactly what I prefer to do on a Friday evening but God called me to write this post, and I gathered up all my courage and published it.

If you read this far, please keep in mind that everything said here was gathered directly from the Bible, which everyone has free access to and can confirm that those truths are exactly what the Word of God says.

In 2016-2017, I struggled with severely suicidal depression and I was cared for by two mental health professionals: a trauma counselor and a Biblical counselor. My Biblical counselor Tammy taught me to turn to the word of God in my desperate situation where I was enduring narcissistic abuse in my marriage.

The word of God, made practical and applicable to my everyday life, thanks to Tammy, saved my life. Specifically, we focused on God’s promises.

On my own, I focused on who God says I am in Christ.

All that work empowered me to persevere through depression, suicidal ideation, two divorces in the first few months of my marriage, divorce jury trial, job loss, betrayal by my friends, and an identity crisis. The word of God was the starting point of my narcissistic abuse recovery.

READ: Narcissistic Abuse Recovery

My work resulted in genuine conversations with God, which led to the revelation of 52 Biblical Affirmations called #52Devotionals. Each is focused on one aspect of my identity in Christ.

READ: Who Am I In Christ?

The 52 affirmations from God saved my life. I learned to view myself differently. God taught me to see myself the way He sees me. Today, I help women see themselves the way God sees them. 

From the Bible, I discovered 52 incredibly-positive things God says about us as His children. Those 52 precious discoveries turned into 52 Biblical affirmations I created to encourage and empower Christian women. 

To help share this life-changing information with you, I created an ebook called #52Devotionals. Download it now for free

Anna Szabo Ebook Devotionals for Women #52Devotionals

p.s.: If you’d like to share your thoughts, there’s a comment box below where I always respond. Read my blog before writing your response, unlike the reader who sent me an email shown below, which demonstrates that she did not read this blog post before commenting. Make sure, before you comment, that your concerns aren’t already addressed in my article. For example, the concerns of the reader, whose letter to me is shared below, are fully addressed in my blog post already. If you still choose to send me an email instead of posting comments here, you won’t get a response, simply because I do not have the manpower to email back and forth. Yet, I do want to hear your thoughts, opinions, questions, and prayer requests, which is why I installed a comment box for you here – Anna Szabo

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