Fasting on Water My Journal by Anna Szabo

I just finished my eighths fasting on water in the last two years. I drank only water while eating no food. This time, it was a 48-hour fast. Last month, I did a five-day water fast. In the last two months, I’ve done multiple 24-hour fasts and am ready to share my journal with you! From how to water fast for weight loss and why do so to my water fasting results, before and after pictures, and tips. I’ll share how I lost 20 lb!

Introduction

Fasting on water was something I witnessed my grandma do many years ago. She’s 92 today, had never been sick with anything serious, never had a surgery of any sort, and worked multiple laborious jobs all her life without even one vacation. She always fasted to show off and get praise and admiration from others. So, fasting became something negative in my opinion, something to fuel an ego of a narcissist. This perception was on a deep, subconscious level, and consequently, I never considered water fasting for myself. The health benefits of fasting are great, that is what I know today from my experience. How did it all start?

In 2014, I became a Christian. In 2017, I was called to ministry. In 2018, I decided to drastically improve my health to honor God with my body, so I committed to the plant-based diet. A week later, I did my first water fast to clear my palette and be able to enjoy simple flavors of kale, carrots, bananas, mushrooms, apples, and tomatoes.

I went from 134 down to 113 lb at 35 years old! Those water fasting experiences were documented by me as vlogs on YouTube, and you can access all 15 videos here or watch the entire playlist below.

This year, I’m 37, and I can tell you something sad: maintaining my ideal weight is harder and harder with age. And to be frank, eating healthily became also hard to do for me. I just didn’t know why it was so hard. So, I went on a water fast, failed, started over, failed, started over, failed, and on and on, until I got this food thing figured out.

How I figured this out and what exactly I figured out, as well as what health results I was able to achieve on my journey – all this I documented in my water fasting journal.

This year, I did it in secret.

Why?

… when you fast, put oil on your head and wash your face,  so that it will not be obvious to others that you are fasting, but only to your Father, who is unseen; and your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you.

Matthew 6:17-18

Despite all the difficulties of fasting on water, this year, I learned so much: about fasting, about food addictions, about epigenetics, about metabolic syndrome, about autophagy, about the dangerous food environment in America, about the importance of eating as a social networking tool, and so much about my food temptations.

I cried a lot. This has been very emotional.

See my water fasting results here.

Without further ado, below is my water fasting journal. I do want to say a couple of words about weight loss using fasting and also my reasons for embarking on this difficult, torturous, yet rewarding journey of breakthroughs and freedom from slavery to food cravings.

Water Fasting for Weight Loss

Many times, I was asked about how to water fast for weight loss. I lost 20 lb by fasting on water, and I’ve done it twice. It is very simple and cheap, yet it’s not easy. So, I wanted to answer some of the commonly asked questions about water fasting for weight loss, all based on my many fasting experiences (eight). I am not a medical professional or a certified nutritionist. If you follow my advice, keep this disclaimer in mind.

Water fasting for weight loss helped me reduce my belly fat and get rid of my lower pooch, as well as enabled me to finally see my abs and obliques. It allowed me to have my thigh gap again because of my now slim tights with visible leg muscles. Also, it helped me expose my arm muscles since my arm fat melted away. Finally, my jawline is now firm and crisp because I no longer have a double-chin.

So, I’m definitely a huge advocate for water fasting weight loss, and I will continue fasting on water regularly. It’s the best age-reversing medicine, and it’s free! I’ve done eight water fasts so far, and I plan to never stop. Wasting on water helped me lose weight, cleanse, detox, slim my legs, melt away my belly fat, add a natural glow to my skin, and look like I’m in my 20s, according to strangers. I’m almost 40 years old!

Read about the 15 benefits of water fasting.

Here are some frequently asked questions answered.


What is water fasting for weight loss?


Water fasting for weight loss is a period of time during which you drink water only and eat nothing. Fasting on water can continue for 12 hours, 24 hours, 48 hours, 72 hours, and even up to 40 days. The maximum length I personally have completed multiple times is five days of fasting on water. Coffee, tea, broth, juice, smoothies, or any food at all – none of it counts as fasting. Only water is what people drink while water fasting. The benefits are weight loss, detox, cleansing, and many others. I lost 20 lb by fasting on water, twice.

Is water fasting good for weight loss?

Water fasting is good for weight loss. It works very well if you truly only drink water, eat nothing, and take no supplements or medications. I personally lost 20 lb by fasting on water, twice.

Is water fasting safe for weight loss?

Water fasting is safe for weight loss if you have no health conditions that require medications. You can’t take meds while not eating. Fasting on water implies that you eat absolutely nothing and just drink water. You can do it at home if you’re healthy or you can go to a dedicated facility and do a supervised water fast there for up to 40 days. I have done eight water fasts at home, and I love it!

How to water fast safely for weight loss

To water fast safely for weight loss, know your why, prepare in advance by eating mostly plants, ditching coffee, and any other addictive substances, make sure you’re not on any meds because drugs can’t be taken while you’re not eating, and then simply drink water for a few days while eating no food. You’ll cleanse, detox, lose weight, reduce any inflammation in your body, and clear your skin.

Water Fasting for Self Care

Why I Did a 5 Day Water Fast

My reasons:

My relationship with food is dysfunctional, I’m obsessed with eating.

I want to clear my mind and be only obsessed with God.

I’m bloated and have a lower pooch, which I can’t stand.

I eat vegan cheese, meat, ice cream, and other vegan junk.

I think I’m addicted to honey, I eat a half a bottle of honey a day.

I’ve been trying to transition to being fully plant-based but I fail about once a month or even more often. I’m ready to do it! I hate craving chicken, lamb, pasta, and sushi.

I am completely healthy and want to honor God with my body as the Bible commands. I also want to honor my body for its hard work and protection from viruses and diseases. I’m grateful for my body and for the fact that it’s kept me protected from the Coronavirus COVID-19.

I have developed a habit of mindless eating which I can’t stand: I eat throughout the day by grabbing stuff and eating from the kitchen counter fast without noticing it. While I don’t eat fast food or sodas or fried chicken or french fries, I do get loaded on nuts, dates, fruit, bread, avocados, hummus, and grains, so I can never tell how much I ate on any given day. I don’t like this.

My overeating and binge-eating cause bloating. It also makes me insulin-resistant. It’s a waste of energy. It’s a sin of gluttony, and the Bible says put a knife to your throat if you’re given to gluttony! I like eating mindfully and slowly while sitting at a table and chewing well. I want to only eat what I need but I don’t know what being healthily full feels like. I don’t recognize when I’m feeling satiated.

Anna Szabo’s Water Fasting Journal 4/15/2020

My 5-Day Water Fast Journal

I’m ready to share with you my 5-day water fast journal. It’s a long one, with lots of ups and downs, helpful resources, breakthroughs, and lessons learned. I hope that my journey helps you. May this information bless you, encourage you, empower you, comfort you, and give you food for thought in regards to your health and your relationship to food.

My conditions:

I am home.

The world is on the coronavirus lockdown

I continue working, reading, writing blogs, walking 10000 steps daily.

I’m healthy, no medications or any supplements whatsoever.

I have no sleep issues.

I have no headaches.

I have no diseases.

I have no acne.

I have no pain in my body of any kind.

I do have fat on my belly, sides, arms, and thighs.  

I do have bloating issues, almost every day.

I do have anxiety and panic attacks sometimes.

I’m 5’10”, my starting weight was 136 lb.

Anna Szabo’s Water Fasting Journal 4/15/2020

My water fasting journal is very honest. I’m publishing it unedited. So, you’ll witness my struggle, turmoil, suffering, disappointment, frustration, strength, weakness, joy, sadness, and you’ll hear about my poop a lot. Why? The quality of your poo is an everyday indication of the quality of your health. Constipation or irregular poop are red flags of illnesses and diseases. So, you got your poop warning!

Here’s my water fasting journal 2020.

My 5-Day Water Fast Failures

The reason why I call this section “Water fasting Failures” is only to label it interestingly, not to judge it critically. The word “failures” reflects the fact that what I set out to accomplish (five days of fasting on water) I did not actually accomplish. While that’s true, I did fail in that sense, and in this section you’ll witness my so called “failures,” the truth is that it was such an extraordinary learning experience! It was a true success.

The knowledge, understanding, skills, and healthy habits I have gained are all the result of that perceived failure back in April. It’s been two months of a total health transformation, and I am at my ideal weight!

There was so much to learn at the time, so thanks to these failures that they happened. I’m grateful for every attempt at water fasting and can tell you from the other side of my adventures: failure is good, that is how you learn and practice the skills you desire.

Here are my attempts at fasting on water.

Water Fast Day 1 Attempt 1 April 15th 2020

Last time I ate was at 11 pm on April 14th, 2020.

I pooped on April 15th at 9:30 am and 3 pm, good quality poop.

I woke up at 9:30 am hungry. Drank water. Pooped a ton of solid, good quality poop immediately. 

I worked in bed till 8 pm: wrote the longest blog post on my blog called Narcissistic Mother-Daughter Relationship with 33000 words, edited it, published. 

From noon to 5:30 pm, the thoughts about food tortured my mind. I prayed to God to help me. The temptations for food were intense but they weren’t coming from my stomach. They were all coming from my mind – the expectations of how I’d feel if I gave in and ate this or that. Interesting to observe. I gave God my promise so I’m staying committed.

Around 3 pm, I pooped a little bit, which looked like all I had. My weight was 134.4 lb. I walked 10000 steps from 8 to 9:40 pm outside. I feel really good: clear-headed, energized, and alert. No fainting, no aches. My stomach is quiet for the first time in a while. I’m loving it! 

I watched 3 videos by Dr. Klaper on water fasting to encourage myself. I am excited! I do feel the hunger in my stomach now. It’s 10:39 pm, I’m showered in bed going to sleep right now. I read for a few minutes.

I’m relaxed, peaceful, and light. 

I see so much better! My vision is sharp

Water Fast Day 2 Attempt 1 April 16th 2020

I woke up at 5:10 am to pee and found myself smiling because I felt calm and light and clear and surrendered. I looked in the mirror and saw that my lower belly pooch was gone, my belly is very flat. I felt good: no headache but growling stomach and thoughts of food, yet they are not intense like yesterday 

In my dreams, I saw food.

So, I slept more, but lightly, felt a headache coming, woke up with a slight headache at 8:51 am, I’m staying in bed doing the reading challenge. I drank water, a little bit, my mouth is still dry but I’m spacing out my water intake to avoid water intoxication.

It’s 9:21 am. My heart is racing a bit, I’m still in bed, watching Dr. Klaper on fasting. It’s 46F outside, I have no heat at home, I’m just not in need of any, I am comfortable as far as my temperature and home temperature, it’s 68F here at home.

Dr. Klaper says, while fasting, look for:

  • Nausea 
  • Pounding headache 
  • Light-headedness from low blood pressure 

It’s 10 am. I feel good and can’t stop smiling. I’m still in bed, watching True North Health Center patient vídeos about fasting. I see so much better! My vision is sharp

It’s 10:16 am. I’m getting out of bed.

To help prevent vomiting like last time on day two, I’m drinking less water, I intake it slowly, and I’m going to lift my legs up before getting out of bed now, so I’m going to do some exercises in bed to get my blood flow going.

It’s now 10:22 am and I’m up and feeling excellent. I did some exercises in bed and got down on my knees out of bed before getting up. I prayed and stretched and now I’m up.

It’s 1:20 pm. I broke the fast with some soup because of lightheaded feeling increase and some confusion occurring.

By 3:40 pm I couldn’t keep my eyes open. It’s 8:40 pm and I took a 90-min nap around 4 pm and at 6 pm I went for 5000 steps. I ate soup again now, I’m going out for a walk again. I’ve been feeling ok after the nap.

So, I fasted 38 hours. Fasting on water for 38 hours shrinks my stomach, and now I can only eat small portions, so I’m chewing mindfully. That’s good. I haven’t pooped yet but I do feel heavy in my belly after this second soup meal. 

I walked 10000 steps. Didn’t read. I wrote two blogs and went to bed at 3 am after eating for the last time at 11:50 pm.

Water Fast Day 1 Attempt 2 April 17th 2020 

It’s 10:30 am. I woke up with a smile, it’s sunny and I feel good.

It’s 10:40 am, and I just pooped a lot. It was one bright thick healthy piece but…. it took time to come out: I experienced very rare constipation. I did not like that at all…

It’s 10:56 am. I drank my first water, made the bed, washed my face, brushed my teeth and hair, changed, and I’m working out now.

It’s 11:24 am. I did 20 min of hula hoop on BOSU while listening to Atomic Habits audiobook on YouTube, and I feel amazing, no hunger! 

It’s 12:20 pm. I did 1200 steps on BOSU at home and it’s really good, my heart rate is up but now I’m so hungry. 

It’s 2:28 pm and I just finished lunch. Yes, I broke my second attempt at fasting on water. I broke the fast because of hunger. I got hungry while doing my workout. So, I went without food for 14 hours. That’s good.

This was my only meal today. 

I’m going to try to go without food for as long as I can. 

My weight was 133.6 lb in the morning.

I walked 10000 steps, 6000 of tem outside.

I ate dinner and pooped after that but with constipation. So, I didn’t do one meal but two. I’m feeling bloated… I ate sweet potatoes and Brussels sprouts. I think my body is confused now about my eating habits and schedule. 

Why am I failing at water fasting? 

Water Fast Day 1 Attempt 3 April 18th 2020

I pooped at 3 am with some constipation again. This is torture! I slept well, no hunger in the morning. My weight is 136.3 lb today.

I did some laundry, vacuumed, dusted, took the trash out, and I’m drinking water, not eating.

It’s 5:57 pm. I walked 18000 steps outside. I haven’t eaten. I’m not hungry. I haven’t pooped either.

It’s 10:09 pm I’m going to bed, I did my water fast and I’m back on track, I walked 21000 steps outside today and worked out, I wrote a long blog post, and I read a book. I’m bloated just now but feeling great otherwise! 

My weight is 129.2 lb tonight.

Water Fast Day 2 Attempt 2 April 19th 2020

I ate around 1 am: some simple soup, so I broke my fast… I couldn’t stretch to day two of my water fasting… I’m drinking tea and plan to eat again at 6. I’ll be eating today and fasting tomorrow 

I’m thinking that maybe every other day will work.

I want to prepare my body for a long fast.

It’s noon, I’m having my second feeding today, my weight was 133.3 this morning so I definitely lost some weight that’s not water. I’m not going to eat tomorrow. I’ll try every other day water fast and see what will happen. I ate a little bit of rice with beans and Brussels sprouts. 

It’s 5:17 pm, I just came home from a walk/run. My first time running in 10 years! I just feel so good! I’m taking a bathroom break, no pooping today so far, just regular peeing. It’s raining outside but I loved it anyway! I feel serene and I look forward to fasting tomorrow.

It’s 6:40 pm and I did 10000 steps, plus 40 min of hula hoop on the river. I’m pooping for the first time in a while, and it is not easy… I don’t like constipation. Gotta give my body a chance to adjust.

Water Fast Day 1 Attempt 4 April 20th 2020

I woke up at 6 am and at 6:30 am, I was out jumping rope and walking stairs, then jogging and walking the hills. I did 5000 steps, came home, and ate soup and a few beans with rice because I wasn’t pooping as I normally do three times a day. So, I broke my water fasting attempt again. It worked because I pooped at 9 am, and it was one dark piece, really good quality, came out easily. It happened immediately after I chewed on four pieces of dry apricot.

My weight is 131.1 lb.

I feel really good, except for my right knee, which hurts, so I’m icing it down. While jogging in the rain, I saw some deep water and wanted to avoid it, so I jumped over too hard and hurt my knee, which I noticed right away.

I saw a deer playing alone in a rain puddle inside the volleyball court here at The Lodge during the heavy rain early morning while I was walking outside.

I was stunned! He was jumping happily, splashing rainwater from the puddle into his own face, and lifting his butt up high in the air from joy. I saw him and froze. He saw me and froze. I never moved, he resumed his play. I was overjoyed to watch something so sacred. I stood there frozen until my neighbor with a German shepherd spooked the deer. It was amazing to watch him play with peace! 

I have been feeling a little bloated after eating beans. I’m thinking that maybe beans are not for me. Can I be allergic to legumes?

I read about legumes intolerance and realized this:

  • I should not consume the water in which legumes were cooked 
  • I should not add oil when cooking legumes
  • I should not cook them for 15 min but slow cook them for an hour
  • I should add cumin and turmeric to legumes when cooking them
  • I should not combine many foods, I need to eat simple meals
  • I should eat nothing sweet after meals, and eat fruit on its own
  • I should not mix various legumes together but eat them separately 

I’ve also learned that it’s not a good thing to fast every other day because it’s going to create a new set point in my body for calories and my body will actually store calories. Not pooping as regularly as I’m used to and experiencing constipation shows me that my body is slowing my metabolism.

It’s the opposite of what I actually want.

The calories I’m burning now are glucose and not fat. If I do a regular day water fast two-three times a year, I’ll be able to cleanse through entering the state of ketosis. If I fast every other day, I’ll never enter ketosis, I’ll teach my body to store calories, I’ll never burn fat, and I’ll be sad because I love my soups and salads daily. I love eating my rainbow. I love berries, fruit, veggies, herbs, and nuts!

So, I’m going back to my original idea of fasting on water for five days, and my list of reasons now expanded:

  • I want to cleanse, not to diet
  • I want to burn fat, not get confused 
  • I want to fast for five days, not forever 
  • I want to eat my healthy meals daily

I need to take a mental break from this intense and revealing experiment and focus on establishing my workout routine.

Then, I’ll do my five-day water fast.

Water Fast Day 1 Attempt 5 April 24th 2020

I got up at 9 am, drank four glasses of water by 12:50 pm, pooped easily one pice at 12:50 pm after hula hooping for 40 min.

My weight is 134.8 lb.

Hunger comes and goes all day.

I’m working on my blog writing. 

Food is not my master.

I can do all things through Christ. 

It’s 2:30 pm, time to walk outside, feeling awesome!

I’m hungry but so what? 

Food is not my master! 

I’m sipping water and not swallowing a ton at once.

Last time I ate was April 23rd at 11 pm, it was a toast.

Dr. Klaper says:

  • Drink plenty of water
  • Move slowly, don’t race
  • Watch out for nausea/vomiting from detoxing
  • Vomiting a lot is not ok, if you do, then drink juice
  • Little headache is ok but not a pounding headache
  • Getting lightheaded when standing up due to blood volume pulling blood draining head, during fast, you lose more water than you drink, you may feel drowsy in the morning and you might be having low blood pressure 
  • Lean people should not fast for long
  • Oversized people can do longer fasts
  • Skinny people can have a real issue of low blood pressure 
  • Don’t get out of bed too fast, be slow
  • Commit to one day of fasting at a time
  • It’s not a race or a contract, break te fast if needed
  • Learn about your body in the process of fasting

I’ve cried a lot thinking about my journey of fasting. It’s hard.

Lesson learned: don’t brag about it, do it for you. I broke the fast with a neighbor for the sake of dinner. I think fasting may not be for me. I didn’t feel good in the evening. Maybe I’m too weak?

Why can’t I stick with fasting on water?

Water Fast Day 1 Attempt 6 April 26th 2020

It’s 7 am. I’m waking up excited to fast on water today. Can I do it? I can do it! I know I can! I’ve examined my journey and intentions and realized that I’ve been like a double-minded man in the scriptures.

… when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord.  Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

James 1:6-8

I love fasting on water. I really do!

It’s a blessing and a privilege to do it.

It’s a cleanse which leads to greater health.

It is not a season of deprivation.

It isn’t a diet, it’s a substitute for pills, drugs, doctors, surgeries, and all that, which I can’t stand. I can’t stand doctors, drugs, and being sick! A water fast is a vacation for my body, which my body truly deserves.

I pooped at 8:30 pm last night and had a kale banana smoothie for dinner around 9 pm. I broke my fast today for the sake of a breakfast with a friend on the floating dock where we were taking pictures. 

I’m fasting on water! ‘m gonna do it!

I understand myself now so much better.

This is very emotional…

I can do this! I know I can!

I’m gonna do it…

My 5-Day Water Fast Success

This blog is long overdue. My friend Maria has been waiting for it for weeks. Also, during my travel adventures in Sarasota, FL on the number one beach in America, the Siesta Key Beach, I met a beautiful pregnant lady who helped photograph me for this blog, and she had acne. She asked me why I don’t have it and how I keep my skin glowing so much. Also, she thought I was much younger than 37.

I told her that it’s all my vegan lifestyle.

Also, I shared with her about water fasting and how it helped me. This was after I had done the fve-day water fast described below. That lady has been waiting for this blog post, too.

Why am I only publishing it today? Because it’s been such an emotionally-intense journey! This has really been hard. n my blog post called “Tell Me How You Really Feel,” I share how I learned to feel my feelings. Fasting on water has brought up some serious issues this year. In 2018, I wasn’t ready to address any of them.

One aspect of my difficult relationship with food is the childhood abuse I endured. I shared some of it in my articles called “Narcissistic Mother,” “Things Narcissistic Mothers Say,” and “Daughters of Narcissistic Mothers.” Food was used as a manipulation tool: if you love me, you will clean your plate; if you love me, you will ask for more food to show me that you like it, etc. At the same time, I was told: you have cellulite on your hips, your arms are fat, your belly is fat, you’re fat and ugly… Food caused confusion about what I was supposed to do: eat or watch my weight… I had no idea.

Another aspect of my torturous relationship with food is its abundance. Growing up during the crush of USSR, we experienced hunger. I still vividly remember empty shelves at grocery stores. There was nothing to eat often, and it left its mark on me. I love food, and I love eating. All-you-can-eat buffets call my name all the time. I love food colors, flavors, variety, and I’m a bit handicapped by those memories of hunger from my childhood. What does it mean? Let me be straightforward: I can eat like a pig, and often people are puzzled as to where it all goes because my size is zero. So, in my headspace, hunger is constant… Not being physically hungry doesn’t mean I won’t eat. Often, I make myself sick by over-eating, binge-eating, and just eating for the sake of eating…

Another aspect of food is the reward-punishment system. If I do well, let’s reward me with some yums. If I fail and over-eat, let’s keep overeating to the point of pain so that the next time I’ll know better. By the way, as you’re reading this black on white, please understand that to realize all this for me took more than a few sentences: It took decades. This confusion was created by me. I do not fully comprehend it yet but at least I am aware of it and I have no shame to share it.

The next aspect of food-issues for me is social acceptance and rejection. I always ate healthily, and in America, often people at work would stare at my plate, comment on how different my food is, stand behind my shoulder to watch me eat and then gossip about it, and I can go on and on about the weird crap I’ve experienced from coworkers in America when I eat broccoli with beets and a huge kale salad. I want to fit in and be on good terms with people around me. Over time, I learned to compromise just to avoid being seen as different. This internal conflict causes the most sadness in me because it implies that I reject who I am.

Finally, there is the general food environment, and in America, it a bad one. Everywhere I look, I see junk food. At work, people used to talk about food all day long, every day. It was so weird… Food addiction reigns in America, and to protect myself from it, I needed to develop muscle and get stronger, yet I mostly gave in… That’s sad. I share more about it in my blog called “Plant-Based Diet Weight Loss.” This makes me cry because I know how strong I must be for me. Yet, many times, I failed myself and compromised my own dietary and nutritional values.

All these are the reasons why writing this blog post is very difficult emotionally. My relationship with food is complicated and multifaceted. To figure all this out, I needed time. Mindfully observing myself “fail” at water fasting, I was able to face the issues I shared with you here.

Before 2020, this was all subconscious, hidden, powerful, and beyond my awareness. Once I faced my “stuff” emotionally, I completed my full five-day water fast as I originally set out to do. Below is my journal: it was not easy but it was possible.

Water Fasting Day 1 April 30th 2020

I pooped great quality poop on April 29th at 11:30 pm after eating a salad.

At 11:30 am today I pooped a great deal, one healthy peace, came out easily after some body massage, stretches, and drinking water.

My weight is 127.6 lb.

It’s 1:47 pm, and I feel amazing. I worked out on the floor: legs, butt, plank, and abs. I’m hungry and my stomach is screaming for food but I’m staying home, by myself, on track.

It’s 4:30 pm. I’m so hungry! I have a little headache and I’m a little dizzy. I’m very very cold through NEST shows that it’s 76F inside my home. Wow! Feels like Siberia! I’m writing my blog and I’m fully committed to this water fast this time. I can do all things through Christ!

I am fully dedicated to detoxing and cleansing my body! I know I can do it because I’ve done this before! This time, it’s really hard: I’m hungry physically and also I’m hungry in my mind. I’m experiencing intrusive thoughts about food while working but that’s exactly why I’m doing this water fast.

It’s 7:23 pm. I was so cold, weak, and light-headed, I wasn’t able to finish writing even one blog for my #52Devotionals library of Biblical Affirmations. Now I’m drinking warm water and it’s making me feel better. I’m watching “What The Health” documentary again, learning new information every time I watch it. I’m so grateful that my day one is almost over and I’ve been able to stay committed to fasting on water. 

It’s 8:30 pm, I pooped one piece very easily. I took a shower and am going to bed to read and watch a good documentary. 

It’s 11:50 pm. I read my devotionals book. I’m going to sleep after watching “The Sugar Film” documentary about sugar-related food addiction. It blew my mind. I started my period and I feel awful but I’m committed to this water fast and I can do all things through Christ.

Food is not my master! 

Water Fasting Day 2 May 1st 2020

My weight 131.4 lb

I woke up around 6 am very light-headed. 

I sipped from a straw out of a water jar placed last night near my bed. I sipped water without lifting my head too much to avoid throwing up.

At 9:30 am, I’m up. I’m dizzy and my stomach is making so much noise but I washed, brushed my teeth, brushed my hair, peed, weighed myself. I took the laundry out of the washer, placed it into the dryer. Yesterday, I did laundry and cleaned my entire patio during the day. That was great!

I plan to stay in bed given my period and fasting. I’m very light-headed and, unlike yesterday when I felt cold, today I feel hot. I’m staying home to avoid temptations. Basically, I’m avoiding my neighbors.

It’s 10:50 am. I just folded my laundry and put it all away. I did my manicure, which was great and relaxing. I’ve been on my feet for one hour and 20 min, so I’m very dizzy. I have a slight headache and I’m going to bed to watch some food documentaries and interviews with Dr. Alan Goldhamer.

I’m realizing that I’m not a typical struggling food addict because I don’t eat chocolates, pizzas, french fries, ice creams, chips, sodas, none of that. But I do have a real problem, and no one ever gave me some space and time to talk about it, except Maria and my kind neighbor who struggles with the same thing. I’m watching now my next food-learning video.

It’s 12:30 pm. My stomach is making so much noise, I’m really hungry, and my neighbor Flame just brought me homemade coconut yogurt she prepared for me. It was kind of awkward when she rang the doorbell, I’m all dizzy and definitely not going to invite anyone inside, plus I don’t eat anything, yet I don’t tell anyone, so I was trying to make something up quickly… It was uncomfortable, for sure.

Her yogurt looks delicious and beautiful. It was hard to resist. I gave her my soup with 20 veggies, which I made a few days ago, and looking in my fridge was tempting: so much goodness there! Kale, soup, mushrooms, pasta, Brussels sprouts… but I am committed to my water fast. I can do this! Food is not my master!

I put Flame’s yogurt in the fridge.

My sense of smell is very sharp today and I’m smelling my neighbors’ food, too! I’m so hungry! I’m drinking my water slowly, little by little. I haven’t been vomiting or anything. It’s more of an emotional torture. But I can do this, I know I can.

I’m in bed watching food documentaries to understand what happened to me in my 12 years in America and how I got conquered by food, gained unwanted weight, and became a slave to intrusive thoughts of eating. This is so hard. I’m crying…

It’s 1:37 pm. I’m watching more and more documentaries about food to understand my own personal journey and challenges with food. I feel ok. I’m cold, hot, cold, hot, cold… I’m very hungry, too!

I’m watching some interesting videos about fasting on water. It gives me so much to ponder! Water fasting is an ancient healing tool. I am healing now, though it feels as if I were dying. Most of the struggle is in my head, I know it. can figure this out… I have to!

It’s 5:57 pm. I’m about to get up and pee.

My back hurts, my stomach still makes a ton of noise, my mouth feels like a rat literally died in there, I’m hot but I know that these are the very indications that my water fast is working! I’m committed 100% and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.

It’s 8:40 pm. I just woke up from a peaceful nap. I iced down my back and it’s ok now. I’m really hungry and weak. I peed, and it stinks really bad. Also, I smell my sweat, it stinks, too, which is unusual. My body is detoxing properly, that’s what these signs indicate. That’s good.

My heart is pounding but I’m back in bed.

I’m watching my next water fasting video.

I’m learning about food addiction and my relapses into eating animal products, overeating, and much more. What a breakthrough in regards to why I’ve struggled with continuing my water fast. Here’s the explanation.

Caffeine, bread, vegan cheese, vegan butter, pasta, pasta sauces, honey – all of these are extremely addictive. It’s understandable why it’s been so hard to resist all the drugs I just mentioned. That’s why I crave pasta, bread, butter, vegan cheese, and honey.

I do see that indeed I did get addicted to food but only certain kinds of food – addictive foods, including the dangerous crap-filled vegan milk. And I can’t blame myself because I didn’t know. Now I do know.

Also, that video above talks about establishing a feeding schedule as well as not eating late at night. That explained how I gained weight and why I overeat.

The Bible says I should fast without telling anyone, and not telling anyone that I’m fasting has made fasting easier. I’m glad I’m doing this in secret. Staying home is the best for now.

I’ve learned from the video above how important it is to wake up, eat, and go to bed at the same time every day. I’ve learned also that it’s ok to not eat beans at all so I feel great because I plan to no longer be eating legumes of any kind. I will not consume any bread, pasta, coffee, vegan processed junk, and I plan to significantly reduce my intake of honey.

 Here’s my next video about fasting on water.

It’s 11 pm and I’m going to sleep.

I feel like throwing up, and my right knee hurts, as well as my lower back on the right, so I’m going to use some ice on my back. I’ve drunk water slowly, got up slowly, spent 90% of my day in bed, and I’ve learned so much!

I have a better understanding of why I’ve struggled with food: because in America I’ve been surrounded by addictive substances called “healthy foods” made specifically to get me addicted to crap and to crave, overeat, binge eat, and genuinely suffer. Today I also massaged my body but only a little bit because my energy is so low. I feel grateful for this day, though my mouth tastes like a dead rat and I stink, literally. 

I’m realizing how privileged I am to be able to do something so intense on my own. Glory to God for this experience. Thank God I can do this at home and don’t have to travel to California or Russia to fast on water.

Water Fasting Day 3 May 2nd 2020

It’s 1:15 am, I woke up to pee and take my ice to the freezer. My knee pain is gone and so is my hunger, vomiting desire, and headache. I’m 125 lb, my legs slimmed down a lot and so is my belly. I walked to the fridge normally, no dizziness. My eyes are sensitive to bright light though.

I feel good, no stomach screaming! 

I got up at 9 am, massaged my legs, stretched them with Theraband, drank water, and now I’m pooping after 28 min of some activity. It’s just a little bit of poop. I woke up several times at night to drink and pee.

I had never done a water fast on my period, I’m bleeding heavily and feeling weak. I put olive oil on my face and hair as they both were very dry. In a few moments, I’ll try to shower, brush my teeth, wash my hair, and go back to bed. I have a little headache and a little background nausea. Yet, I am 100% in and fully committed to this journey.

It’s noon. I talked for two hours on the phone with my friend María and shared some of my struggles related to food. I’m still keeping my water fasting adventures to myself, so I did not tell her. But I did cry…

I took a shower before 10 am, washed my hair and face, and I feel better. My stomach is making noises again. I’m hungry and have a little headache but I’m committed to this fast. Food is not my master!

I will rid my body of its cravings and give it a new fresh start on whole-foods plant-based nutrition. I will eat at 6 am, 12 pm, and 6 pm when I go back to eating. I will practice a simple “no thank you” when it comes to food. I will stay true to my values when it comes to food.

I will not subject myself to bad eating habits, which have such negative all-encompassing health consequences. I will honor God with my body. I will avoid the sin of gluttony. I will cherish my physical and mental health with good food only

It’s 2:27 pm, and I just woke up from a nap. I’m taking a little slow walk to the mailroom to pick up my delivery from Julieta. My stomach is making so much loud noise, it was my stomach that woke me up after two hours of napping. Outside, neighbors are wearing swimsuits. I’m wearing my winter coat on top of pjs. I’m so cold! Under two expensive thick comforters and a blanket, I was shaking in my warm pjs. Wow! My mouth tastes like a dead rat. My belly hurts from menstruation. 

It’s 2:40 pm. I got my package and I’m back in bed now to watch more food documentaries. I drank water when I woke up from the nap and after getting the mail.

It’s 4:41 pm, and I just finished watching “Forks Over Knives” for the fifths time. I’ve started watching “Game Changers” but now I’m crying again. I’m crying when I see people say: “It was easy for me to change to a whole-foods plant-based diet.” Not for me! For me, it’s all very difficult.

I have an addictive personality and a lifetime of history of various addictions. I described my sex addiction here in detail, on this blog. But food addiction… This one has been tough…

There’s a huge social component to this: I don’t want to offend my friends, neighbors, and colleagues by rejecting the food they serve or want to eat. Yet, I hate eating junk.

Every time I say yes to the food served in the office or professional associations’ networking events, neighbors’ homes, or church parties, I say no to my own personal values. I betray myself.

I say no to my health. I say no to Anna, whom I live with day in and day out and with whom I have to maintain a good relationship, which requires integrity and strong boundaries.

I don’t want to eat animals. I don’t want to have cancer. I don’t want to have diabetes. I don’t want to have heart diseases. I don’t want to be on chemotherapy or have my chest cut open for a bypass surgery. No, thank you! I want to be healthy, active, drug-free, and live a peaceful life, not harming animals, myself, or my planet. In the last 12 years since I arrived in America, I’ve been influenced by burgers, hotdogs, lamb gyros, sweet pecan pies, cheeses of all sorts, coffee filled with cancer-promoting junk, chicken smelling all over each grocery store anywhere, and meatballs pasta on every corner. I want to be free from slavery to my food addiction. Food is not my master!

It’s 6:53 pm, and I’m icing down my knee and my back, which hurt from so much lying down. I just finished watching “The Game Changers” documentary. I’m crying again. I’m so emotional today.

I’m crying because I see people who decided to go plant-based and never relapsed. I saw people who never ate animal products in their entire lives. Why is this so painful for me? Because I want to be a part of the American community, and here in the South in America at family, networking, and holiday tables you’re served deep-friend, sugar-loaded, oil-fueled, cancer-inviting crap. It kills the heck out of people, and I hate eating it, yet, sometimes I do, then I hate it even more because I compromise who I am, and who I am comes home with me, so me, myself, and I have a conflict…. I must decide once and for all to commit to three simple words: “no thank you!” to avoid the pleasure trap. 

I’m watching another video about fasting. I’m bleeding heavily, this is day three of my period, and the blood is dark, it comes out in pieces. I don’t know what this means.

It’s 8:04 pm. I took another shower and I’m going to bed. I read several devotions and I’m not hungry anymore. I’m bleeding heavily and may start refeeding tomorrow. We shall see. Like Dr. Klaper said: take it one day at a time. I am so glad that I’ve been able to do this water fast for three days now. My weight is 123.5 lb.

I actually ended up curious about my intense back pain and watched this video, which helped me understand that the back pain is from kidneys as it is cleansing the products of detoxification in my body.

I learned that I feel nauseated because of the bile that’s being dumped out thanks to detoxing. These are all positive responses of the body trying to clean itself. That’s very good.

When I did water fasting before, I didn’t rest much. In fact, I felt too good and it was because I didn’t rest, so my body actually didn’t mobilize what needed to be eliminated. So, I am really miserable this time because I’m in an environment of complete rest, and the very symptoms that make me feel awful are the indication that my water fast is going really well. 

I’ve learned that my habit of overeating is actually shortening my lifespan. That’s why the Bible condemns gluttony as a sin, basically saying it’s better to kill yourself than to overeat, binge-eat, and be addicted to food. Wow! This is good to think through. God surely doesn’t want us to have food as our master…

and put a knife to your throat if you are given to gluttony.

Proverbs 23:2

Water Fasting Day 4 May 3rd 2020

It’s 4 am. I am miserable. So much pain in my back, belly, and legs from my period, and I’m bleeding heavily. I’ve hardly slept. I’m turning and tossing. I have a headache and my heard is pounding like crazy.

Yet, I want to fast on water today still

It’s 6:52 am. I peed, washed my face, brushed my teeth, and I’m back in bed. I’m in a lot of normal menstrual pain but can’t take ibuprofen since I haven’t eaten in four days. So, the night was filled with pain and suffering but I am committed to doing two more days of water fasting. My stomach is growling loudly. My head was pounding all night. My menstrual bleeding is now black. I know my body is changing…

My weight is 126.4 lb.

I’ve learned from this video that diarrhea and vomiting are normal on a water fast. Today, I also began sneezing like crazy. For some reason, I also coughed out of the blue today.

It’s 10 am. I slept for a little bit and then drank water and went to pee and did my morning hygiene. I’m back in bed now. My back and legs don’t hurt anymore. My stomach is making a ton of crazy loud noise, I’m glad no one is here to hear this!

It’s a sunny day. I am enjoying the birds’ songs. 

I haven’t told anyone about my fast. Me and God – we are doing this together in secret! I didn’t understand the value of this before and ran my mouth too much. Not anymore.

I feel nauseous but it’s normal, Dr. Klaper says. In his video above, Dr. Klaper recommends an enema before a water fast, unless you are able to eat fruits and veggies for three days beforehand. 

The problem in America is that food is a recreational activity. People eat late into the night, overeat, and feel miserable. I’ve been among those people. I can’t stand it. I love going to bed hungry!

Dr. Klaper recommends veggie juices instead of fruit juices, which have a lot of sugar. He is also not a fan of smoothies, which promote loose stool and other issues. He says there’s nothing natural about consuming smoothies and, instead, we must sit down and chew up food.

I’m watching another fasting video.  

It’s 10:32 am. Omg, my heart is pounding so bad!

In this video, Dr. Gerger says that fruit is essential in our died. And inadequate fruit consumption actually kills people. Wow!

This water fast is definitely a test of my spirituality, self-discipline, patience, wisdom, ability to prioritize, and commitment to my values. 

I just watched an awesome video about how self massage helps poop on a water fast. I need to start practicing self-massage, will try it, for sure.

Interestingly, I’m very sensitive to smell and sounds. My kitchen is very clean – everywhere. Yet, I feel like there’s some food out. Nothing is out and I don’t know what I’m smelling, even my dishwasher and trash are crystal clear. Nothing is in there. So strange how my body is adapting.

It’s 75F outside. I’m under two comforters and a furry blanket in my warm pjs, yet shaking from being so cold. My hands are like pure ice.

It’s 11:18 am. I’m so tired and weak. One interesting thing: when you put in a ton of work upfront, it pays off allowing you to take time for self-care. While I’m sleeping all day, my blog traffic is growing every day, my email list is growing every day, and I’m just so grateful to God for this experience. My Christian blog is here to help many people!

It’s 2:18 pm, I am going to sleep. I feel hungry, weak, and irritated. I shut down my windows because of the strong smell coming from the streets, which made me nauseous. I’m still bleeding and I’m just annoyed yet committed to fasting on water, still.

Now, I can’t sleep, so I’m watching another food documentary called “We Are What We Eat.” It’s very interesting, and it’s actually about the brain. Of course, because all addictions live in the brain.

I fell asleep watching the brain documentary and slept till 5 pm when my loud stomach woke me up. So I peed, washed my face, brushed my teeth, flashed my sinuses with SinusRinse because inside my nose was super-dry, and I also scrubbed my dry lips with a lip scrub.

I’m back in bed now watching that brain documentary. I’m feeling a lot: hunger, nausea, and weakness. But I’m committed to fasting on water, I really am! Food is not my master. This day is almost over, then, only one more day to go. I’ve learned so much on this journey and can’t share it with others just yet, but soon I definitely will, and maybe someone will find help and hope reading about my experiences…

I feel like there’s a poem boiling on the inside…

“A Poem About Waster Fasting” #PoemsFromGod

Water fasting is a difficult journey to optimal health.
Health is a very unique, rare, and special type of wealth.

It’s not something you can inherit from relatives or go buy.
You must earn health by sleeping, exercising, and eating to live - not to die. 

The obstacles to optimal health surround you everywhere:
Ice cream, burger, pizza, fries, chocolates, and soda are found anywhere. 

These are addictive drugs, which are stronger than cocaine.
They trick, addict, damage, and destroy your one and only precious brain.
 
These drugs are specifically designed by food scientists to get you hooked,
To get you overeat, crave crap, and to make your wellness overlooked. 

They are ought to make you fat, miserable, sick, and nearly dead.
They aim to give you diseases so that you’re permanently stuck on your bed.

The only way to get unhooked from all the food crap is to do a water fast.
It helps restore your brain, your stomach, your arteries, and heals you best.

Though fasting on water won’t make you feel good.
It will however mobilize and cleanse all kinds of crap and get your body to reboot. 

After your water fast, eat healthy plants, whole grains, nuts, and seeds.
That way fasting on water meets your health goals and even exceeds. 

Don’t put crappy food into your mouth, avoid getting crap-hooked. 
Eat raw fruits, vegetables, nuts, as well as whole grains cooked. 

When you achieve optimal health and people try to get you off track,
When they offer you deep-fried chicken, cheesy mushed potatoes, and other crap... 

Learn to say "no thank you" and stay true to your values and health priority.
Exercise boundaries and refuse crappy food with determination and authority.


5/3/20 © Anna Szabo, JD, MBA 
 

It’s 8:34 pm. I keep sneezing and have some gas in my belly. Weird… I thought of doing an enema but since I’m so nauseous I’m pretty sure that would be a huge job and I’m not gonna do it. 

I read several Devotionals, pooped a little bit, which didn’t come out easily, so I massaged my belly and legs, and took a hot shower. I changed my pjs, which I do every day. Now, I’m ready to go to bed for good.

I’ve tried to stay in bed as much as possible because of my tiredness and background nausea. Today, I’ve been burping, ready to vomit, but I didn’t vomit. The shower felt like a day of farming – so tiring! I’m grateful that I did my water fast one more day. Tomorrow is my last day!

Please help me, God!

My weight is 123.6 lb, my inner thighs no longer touch, my double-chin is gone, my belly is as flat as in 2009, and I plan to practice caloric deficit to lose a few more pounds. I lost 12.4 lb so far and I’m very grateful for this journey, though it’s been miserable.

I can’t sleep. It’s 10:50 pm. I feel so nauseous….

Water Fasting Day 5 May 4th 2020

It’s 4 am. I woke up for the second time to pee and drink water, the first time was at 1 am. Yesterday I fell asleep while listening to Proverbs on the Bible app. At 1 am, my legs felt so dry, I had to massage them with lotion again, and I’ve had to do the same for my dry feet yesterday. 

Now, I feel clear-minded, not hungry, no light sensitivity, no dizziness, no headache, no stomach screaming for food, no gas, no back pain, no nausea, though my heart is still pounding after I brushed my teeth and weighed myself a few minutes ago. 

My weight is 123.6 lb. 

I thank God that I’ve made it to this point! 

I looked in the mirror: I can see my abs! I love how my legs look without cellulite all over them, I love my skinny face, and I can recognize me, my real self the way I was for almost all my life, until at 34 I began gaining weight from eating poorly, over-eating, and binge-eating while married to the narcissist. I’m 37 and I want to be healthy.

I want to carry only my optimal weight, not 21 lb extra. This has been a magic transformation and tomorrow I’ll start refeeding myself with veggie juice, soup, and veggie broth. It’s been a difficult and miserable journey but I’m so thankful to God that He kept me protected to be able able to do this. No one knows. I’ve done this in secret: God and me only. I’ve done this in peace, except for a little irritation due to my menstrual pains and heavy bleeding. I’ve been peaceful trusting God every day

I’m not cold anymore. I’m in my bed with covers off and I feel great! My blood is still dark and heavy but tomorrow it will all get better so I can persevere today. I’m steel sneezing.

It’s 9 am, and I’m waking up. It’s sunny and beautiful. I enjoy the songs of the birds outside. One more day… I can do this! Sneezing is increasing!

I definitely have had light sensitivity and have kept my blinds mostly shut down. Yesterday I opened my windows, that’s when sneezing begun. Ok. Got it. I let in some kind of crap into my bedroom from the open windows and I almost know what that crap was: my neighbors smoke weed.

It’s 9:50 am, and I’m pooping: easily, as one piece, no problem! Yeah! Love it! I’m about to take a shower, wash my face, and go back to bed. I plan to watch a few more educational videos about food. 

Once I refeed myself back to normal, I plan to make my own plant-based burritos for the first time. I’m so excited about this idea. This all started because of the food videos and people talking about burritos. I think of adding there lots of veggies, pickles, avocado, seeds, and sweet potatoes.

It’s 10:15 am and I’m in bed after my morning hygiene routine. I am exhausted! And now I’m hungry, and my stomach is making a ton of loud noise demanding food! I refreshed my mouth, took care of my hair, washed my face, moisturized it, took a hot shower, ended it with a cold shower, which I typically do daily but couldn’t for the first four days of water fast since I was so cold. I moisturized my body and now I’m lying down. Whew! I didn’t even put my pjs on because I’m so hot. The temperature has not changed at all. My body is changing…

I look at my legs and see that they’ve changed! I can recognize them: they are slim, not touching each other, and are not covered in painful cellulite. My belly is flat, I see my abs, I see my ribs, and I recognize myself. I feel so happy to see me in my mirror again!

Carrying on fat felt uncomfortable and overwhelming for me. I don’t like feeling like I’m stuck in someone else’s body. I love feeling one with my own body, and my ideal weight is 116 lb. 

It’s 11:46 am. I just tried on all my pants that were too small just a few days ago. All of them fit perfectly, and I can’t wait to wear my wardrobe! I’m so happy! I’m so happy! 

I unpacked my new high heels from Julieta handmade for plantar fasciitis. I’m tearing up thinking about how precious it is that I can wear heels again. After the car accident in 2018, my fascia collapsed and I had severe pain in my foot. No heels since then. Yet, when I wore heels on rare occasions, my feet screamed from the pain. Julieta heels are handmade in Spain for plantar fasciitis and have built-in support for the fascia. They feel as comfortable as sleepers. I’m so ready to be me: fit body, high heels, colorful dresses, and a ton of energy!

It’s 1:40 pm I’ve been up, staying in bed but I’m full of energy, feeling excellent and very excited. After I flashed my sinuses, the sneezing stopped. I’m just learning online on YouTube and planning my veggie broth with asparagus, kale, spinach, broccoli, sweet potatoes, regular potato, onions, and garlic. It’s for my refeeding in the morning. Then, I’ll go to the grocery store to buy various fruits and the things I need to try to make my first ever plant-based burrito. I’m so excited! I plan to eat slowly and in small batches, chew well, and take my time. 

It’s 4:53 pm, and from this video I found out why my plantar fasciitis disappeared: it’s because of my water fast! Wow! I can’t wait to rock my high heels and dresses in my new light body! I’m so happy! I’m so so happy! I’m so grateful! I’m so excited! Fasting prevents dementia, I found out from the video above, too! Wow! How awesome!

It’s 5:13 pm. I massaged my body and feel euphoric. I’m so happy I took on this challenge! I’m so happy I did this water fast in secret! I’m so happy I did this with God! I’m so happy I did this for five days and didn’t quit! It’s just been so healing! 

It’s 7 pm. I haven’t been napping so I’m exhausted. I read a book. I pooped. I did a little leg workout in bed. I did my hygiene routine. And I meal prepped for my refeeding: I washed all veggies and put them whole in an instant pot. Three pieces of purple kale, one large white potato unpeeled, half of a sweet potato unpeeled, two mushrooms, one unpeeled red beet, half a bell pepper, three gloves of garlic, broccoli, a bunch of asparagus, and about 15 baby carrots. All organic. I poured filtered water and turned it on low pressure for 2 h 45 min without keeping warm. When I wake up at 1 am to pee, I’ll start sipping on the veggie broth and then use those veggies the next day.

I feel really good and accomplished.

Glory to God! With Him, I can do anything! 

It’s 8 pm, and I can’t sleep. I’ve been feeling too excited about this whole journey and also thinking about my lessons learned, so I wrote a poem.

“Water Fasting vs Gluttony” #PoemsFromGod

Water fasting is a tough test for your discipline, fortitude, commitment, and spiritual maturity. 
It rids your body of addictive food crap, chemicals, and fat. And it helps you achieve spiritual purity.

Without food, day after day, you feel deprived, trapped, physically weak, and emotionally unstable.
Only God can help get you through. He gives you strength. God is of divine comforting able. 

Water fasting journey tests your thinking, wisdom, and your willingness to abide in Christ.
Jesus gave up His life to set you free. The least you can do is just a few meals to sacrifice. 

Sacrificing food, your temptations, salt and fat addictions, and mental focus isn’t easy at all.
That’s why to be able to fast on water only, you must every day wholeheartedly on God call. 

You must have strong reasons to fast on water only, not just weight loss, that goal is too vain. 
You must set your eyes on the Lord and desire Him more than food, that’s how you can stay sane. 

During your water fast, you’ll be tested plenty: your faith, your body, your priorities, your will, your strength, your habits, and your mind.
At the end of your water fast, you’ll be renewed physically, mentally, and spiritually: you’ll no longer be weak and blind.

You’ll be able to see clearly that food is no longer your master, it can’t control you, you have one master, you belong to God.
You’ll understand what the Bible means in saying: put a knife to your throat if the sin of gluttony the best of you got. 

You’ll be able to honor God with your body, eat like Daniel did, and flee from the food addiction gluttony sin.
You’ll be able to focus on building mental, emotional, and spiritual strength, abide in Christ, and stay lean. 


5/4/20 © Anna Szabo, JD, MBA

It’s 9 pm. I can’t sleep because I smell my food for tomorrow. It’s cooking, and I’m too excited about it! So, I’m watching a water fasting documentary about fasting in Russia, which has been used as a healing tool for the last 60 years. I had no idea. Very insightful…

I discovered from the documentary that water fasting for healing was discovered by a Russian physiatrist Yuri Nikolaev more than 60 years ago, far away from the West during the Cold War, behind The Iron Curtain. Wow! That physiatrist healed a mentally ill patient with water fasting! What? Amazing! I am Russian. Why didn’t I know this? He cured mentally ill patients for decades with 21-40 days of water-only fasts. He treated 8000 patients with remarkable mental-health improvements in 70% of cases! In Siberia today, fasting is an essential part of public health policy. Thousands of patients with asthma were cured by fasting on water only. How remarkable!

In Germany, Dr. Andres Michelson cures about 500 patients annually through water fasting, all paid by the government. More than 500 patients want to be enrolled but are denied this service due to the lack of space. Fasting on water protects cancer patients from the devastating side effects of chemotherapy, and it is proven that five days of water fasting helps cancer patients cope with chemo very well while continuing to work.

It’s 10:30 pm, I just finished watching the water fasting documentary and my mind is blown away. I’m so glad I could not fall asleep and YouTube recommended that video. I’ve learned so much!

Consistent lab tests have been done on humans, mice, rats, and penguins to prove that fasting is not only safe but natural and has been practiced by all living creatures for millions of years. 

I also discovered the world’s largest fasting study, which blew my mind. I feel encouraged, excited, and empowered to share my discoveries through my blog, and I know I’ll write more than one! 

As far as how I feel: no foul mouth, no pains, no aches, full of energy, clear-headed, creative, overjoyed, strong, no gas, no stomach noises, no feet pain from plantar fasciitis, I look younger and skinnier, and I feel like a Wonder Woman! 

My final weight is 123.6 lb.

I’m about to eat my veggie broth in 17 min. It’s 11:44 pm. I smell every vegetable in my soup. I’m so grateful for the meal prep idea. I saw my instant pot’s contents – looks and smells delicious. Of course, I won’t be chewing anything. Instead, I’ll purê a few pieces of some veggies and eat mostly broth – slowly and mindfully. Thank you, God, for this unique, healing, and eye-opening experience.

20 Self-Care Practices for Mind, Body, and Soul

My Refeeding After a Water Fast

If you really took the time to read my journal, you’ve witnessed how many changes my body went through during the five-day-long water fast. Many people eat pizza and burgers after fasting on water. The truth is that the human body needs time to adjust back to eating (not that I ever recommend eating burgers and pizza).

Refeeding after fasting on water requires eating a chunky watermelon or papaya, veggie broth, and simple food that’s easy to digest.

Not doing the right thing during the refeeding period can result in various health issues. The human body is smart machinery and requires special treatment.

Starting refeeding with a veggie broth is the best way to end a prolonged water fast. Preparing the broth or watermelon chunks in advance is advisable. Here’s my refeeding journal: you can see how I was trying to figure out how to best eat, my schedule, portions, frequency of my meals, and all other aspects of eating.

Refeeding Day 1 May 5th 2020

My simple veggie broth is ready: it’s beautiful and smells great! I’m too excited to eat, so I’m trying to calm down. 

At 12:20 am, I finished eating. I ate five spoons of my broth and was full. I pooped: it was a small healthy piece. I did my nighttime hygiene routine again. And I went to sleep tired because eating was a lot of work and I immediately felt dizzy after the five spoons of broth. 

I woke up at 6:20 am, no alarms. I went to eat but this time, I poured the same broth in a cup and drank it slowly. It was 1/2 of a coffee mug. I got a little headache right away. My heart began pounding, and I was almost out of breath at first, which normalized within a few minutes.

It’s 7 am, and I just finished drinking my soup. I have no headache, I can breathe, my heart is still pounding a little bit, and I’m excited to gently re-introduce food into my life.

I’m going to do my morning hygiene and then sleep some more. Then, I’ll eat some more but I’ll add more puréed veggies to my broth. This time I added from that broth I made the following boiled veggies: 1/8 of a bell pepper, one mushroom, 1/6 of a white potato, and two pieces of asparagus. I added fresh garlic to that.

Now, that’s finished. For my next refeeding I’ll make a new purée with sweet potato, broccoli, carrots, and kale from that same broth, which I’m keeping on warm in the kitchen in the IntaPot. 

After that, I plan to eat another soup with a few lentils and chunks of veggies instead of veggies puréed. I may make veggie juice today but I’m not sure yet because I do want that little bit of fiber. Why? Because I want to poop and get back to my normal three times a day pooping schedule. Anyway, I know that veggie juice might be great but it absorbs into the bloodstream too fast and offers no fiber at all, so it doesn’t result in pooping. 

My refeeding must last for 2.5-3 days, which is half of my fast. That’s a typical rule. Then, I get to eat some solid plant-based food. Overall, I feel really good and empowered.

I must stay humble and take this slowly and rest because the disposal of all the mobilized crap in my body continues still, so I must be mindful and not overeat on broth but give my body proper time – with patience and mindfulness – to restore its ability to digest food and get back to normal. I’m taking it all slow. I’ve learned so much and I’m grateful for the journey. 

It’s 9:35 am, I made another soup purée but I used fewer pulses on my food processor when puréeing veggies so there’s some more fiber. I feel how the food is working and I hear it too. I only took two small sips and I started feeling dizzy, so I’m in bed and will rest, sipping on this soup purée slowly over time. It’s a small batch, about the size of a coffee mug. I plan to sip on it for two hours or so. It’s in a thermos-like mug so it will stay warm.

It’s 12:20 pm, and I haven’t pooped. I just finished my green juice with kale, cucumber, lemon, orange, and apple. I’m going to take a nap. My heart is pounding and I’m out of breath. 

It’s 3 pm, and I woke up on my own from the most peaceful nap ever. No alarm clock. I feel so calm. Interestingly, I’m not bothered a bit by the sounds of an ongoing rooftop remodeling, which began in my community two weeks ago and will continue for two months.

Landscapers, with their loud blowers, do not bother me either. The screaming children, motorcycles, loud cars – nothing annoys me. I’m just chill. I’m peaceful. I thank God for this divine experience.

I’ve noticed one more thing: the fact that my floors need to be vacuumed and there’s just regular dust accumulated in the last week. Though I have OCD, this doesn’t bother me either. I know I’ll get to it when I have my energy back. My pounding heart is normal now.

Why heart pounding during a water fast? Dehydration causes strain on the heart. The amount of blood circulating through the body – blood volume – decreases when a human is dehydrated. How can someone be dehydrated on a water fast? Everyone is always dehydrated when fasting on water because the body uses more water that’s being consumed. To compensate during the dehydration, the heart beats faster, increasing the heart rate and causing palpitations, aka rapid and strong heartbeats.

At 5:20 pm. I felt energized and decided to take care of my packages and mail, which are located on two different sides of my neighborhood with my home being in the middle. I changed out of my pjs into normal clothes and went to get my three deliveries.

I got my three packages, brought them home, and thanked God for the energy. It felt like such a long trip (and I walk 25,000 steps up and down the hills often). I was a bit out of breath but I opened each package, put all my things away, and was ready to dispose of the boxes.

The trash is located near the mailboxes, so I walked up the hill. It was hard but ok until I saw my friendly neighbors with a beautiful baby who wanted to “talk” to me. I stopped to be courteous but immediately realized that I was running out of breath and feeling dizzy, so I asked if they would like to walk up the hill to the trash disposal and mailbox and they said yes.

It’s only a few feet up. It’s literally right there! Yet, every step was a struggle. On the way up there, just a few feet away, I felt so out of breath, my heart was pounding loudly, but I managed to get rid of the trash and get my mail. As soon as I started walking down the hill to get home, I had severe cramps in my right leg and was unable to walk. It was a shock. 

Why did I feel leg cramps after a water fast? Magnesium plays a role in transporting calcium and potassium ions across cell membranes. Without it, my muscles may have difficulty contracting properly, which is why a common symptom of low magnesium levels is muscle cramping, something commonly experienced when fasting on water. I needed nuts and spinach.

The walk is 1/20000 of the walk I typically do but oh my, a short walk had never been so long, painful, or miserable. I was fainting, out of breath, with severe leg cramps, and nearly passed out. The kind neighbors walked with me to my place, I got in, immediately took a shower, and went to bed to drink water and lie down. I was shocked! 

I massaged my legs, did little exercises, ate a box of organic seaweed slowly, and I was ok after that. My heart calmed down once I was in bed resting and breathing. 

It’s 7:47 pm, and I am finally pooping, after a walk and my final few sips of the soup purée. It came out easily as one dark medium piece but it stinks so bad… not the usual smell for my poop at all. I think anyone doing a water fast needs to be really aware of the pooping aspect of it, bad body odor, foul mouth, dry hair, cracked lips, and peeling skin.

Now, I’m going to do my final bedtime hygiene and go to sleep listening to the book of Luke and Acts on the Bible app and icing down my right knee. Tomorrow I plan to run to the grocery store and get some fresh produce. I’m so happy I pooped! Thank God! Pooping is very important to health, and I’m used to pooping easily three times a day, so I hope to very soon restore this habit because not pooping keeps toxins in, causes weight gain, and overall is very unhealthy. 

Refeeding Day 2 May 6th 2020

It’s 1:55 am. I was hungry so I made thin skinny potatoes with garlic and mushrooms and a salad with spinach, tomato, and cucumber. After that, my cramps were gone, I pooped a ton of normal poop, and after all that dinner and a ton of water, my weight is 120.9 lb. 

I woke up at 10:45 am. The most peaceful nine hours of sleep ever! I just felt so good, light, rested, and content. I did my morning hygiene and weighed myself. I’m at 120.9 lb. So, I lost 15.1 lb since starting my water fasting journey. 

I lost 15.1 lb since three weeks ago! 

All things are possible with Christ. 

I went for a short walk in the sun, I cleaned the kitchen from last night’s cooking, I drank water, I made a green smoothie with spinach, bananas, dates, and a few flax seeds, and I’m slowly drinking it now. I’m drinking it in bed while resting because at 1 pm, I’m going to the grocery store, and I don’t want to faint. I remember yesterday and I don’t want to overdo it. I want to take things slowly. Though I want to get some things done today, I plan to rest in between chores. 

I have no cramps, no headache, no anything. I feel amazing, light, energized, and most importantly I feel like my real self. Those 15 extra-pounds were unnecessary for me.

The effort that fasting on water takes is tremendous and exhausting but the benefits exceed that effort. Nothing worth having is ever easy. Optimal health is the most precious asset. To have it, we must work hard and sacrifice. Food is not my master. God is!

In the last two days, I’ve been learning to make the best food choices based on what my body needs: a green smoothie instead of a green juice because the smoothie has all the valuable fiber to help me poop, which is very important to my good health; a potato with a big salad to help me with leg cramps caused by the carb depletion and the deficit of magnesium. I’m learning to breathe slowly before and while eating and be mindful of what I eat and most importantly why something makes its way into my mouth. 

The reason for anything to make it into my body must be nutritional. “What is the nutritional value of this food?” – I must ask myself. Also, I must consider how much I eat and why I eat that much. I know my hunger often has huge eyes, and it caused my stomach to grow huge, too. I don’t want a huge stomach so I must deploy my mind to control the eyes of my brain’s hunger.

What do I mean? 

Many times, I wasn’t physically hungry but mentally I was. In my brain, I’d be tempted to eat when my stomach was begging me to stop. I’d feel like vomiting – so staffed and so full. I never felt good overeating yet I overate often. Why? The reasons are emotional: it’s the relationship between the food and the brain’s pleasure center. Eating food makes me feel a certain way.

Which way? Let’s see…

How Eating Food Makes Me Feel

In control. Yes, eating food helps me cope with life’s uncertainties and challenges. But only emotionally. Physically overeating and binge-eating made me 20 lb overweight and completely miserable. 

Loved. Yes, food was used to show me love when I was growing up, and it was the only way. I wasn’t hugged, acknowledged, appreciated, no, I was rejected and condemned, I was abandoned and abused, but I was fed most of the time. And this was presented to me as love.

Safe. Yes, eating food means being safe because growing up in Soviet Russia, I experienced no food at all, hunger, anarchy, danger, brainwashing, uncertainty, and a total overall haze. So, somehow eating food, which is abundant here in America, makes me feel safe.

All of this is on the subconscious level, not in my immediate awareness. I had to work hard to understand all these emotional issues and accept them. One day, I will be able to write about these things on my blog for others to read. It’s extremely complex and complicated, and I am not working with any therapists. This is my journey, and I am figuring this out on my own.

A huge component of this emotional killer cocktail is shame. Overeating, binge-eating, mindless eating, eating enormous amounts of food – all of this is embarrassing and causes shame. When one day I will be able to share my food struggles on my blog, I will have overcome my shame.

How can I overcome the shame of my binge-eating disorder? I must surrender it all to Jesus because I do understand that I am just a human with many issues. I have emotions, temptations, and compulsions caused by the trauma I endured in life, especially as a child who was abandoned and abused, beaten, violated, rejected, bullied, and manipulated daily. My water fasting journey helps me understand me.

Jesus sets me free. Life is an everyday process between the Flesh and the Spirit as I illustrated for my Christian coaching client in 2018 through the ITCEBO model. I have to take every thought captive, every day.

ITCEBO model by Anna Szabo: Flesh vs Spirit

Knowing the truth about Jesus, my identity, my life story, my addictions, my emotional struggles, satan and his deceptive attacks on my mind, spiritual warfare, as well as my journey from birth through life toward eternity with God, the truth is what sets me free.

I am free in Christ.

Keeping my binge-eating disorder a secret from people is not something I’ll do because the problem will only grow in the darkness and get worse over time. Instead, I will share my issues and expose my binge-eating disorder to light so that it can be the light for others who struggle because they will see how God helps me with this issue. Exposing my troubles with food and showing how God is healing me will heal someone else, I know it, so I will disclose everything.

Whatever is hidden is meant to be disclosed, and whatever is concealed is meant to be brought out into the open.

Mark 4:22

Everything exposed by the light becomes visible, and everything that is illuminated becomes light.

Ephesians 5:13

Reading is a better coping tool than eating. Walking is an excellent substitute for eating when I’m anxious. Napping is better than binge-eating. I also love exercise!

Also, soothing for my nerves are chores. Cleaning, cooking, laundry – these are all the kinds of activities that make me feel in control and show me the immediate result of my labor, such as a clean home, an organized clean closet, and a fridge full of good homemade food! A clean home makes me feel loved and safe, too, because I associate, from my childhood, danger with a chaotic, disorganized, dirty, mice-filled, bugs-filled, stinky home, with crap piled up everywhere and people fighting. That was my home environment growing up.

Food is fuel and medicine, not anything else.

I never want to eat for social reasons again, just because others are eating staffed turkey with triple-cheese mashed potatoes covered in beacon, and I feel afraid to offend someone by saying “no thank you!”

My favorite phrase from now on is “no thank you!” I’m going to practice at home often so that it becomes automatic and I don’t have to feel guilt from hurting someone’s feelings by saying “no thank you!”

Simple words but very powerful! 

I want to have a healthy, thoughtful, mindful, productive relationship with food and with myself. Over-eating, binge-eating, crap-eating, and eating when I’m not even hungry are all the reasons why me, myself, I, and food were all at odds for a while. I’m glad I did this water fast. Once I’m able, I’m starting back on my exercise routine.

I plan to continue my healthy habits forever

Establishing, developing, and maintaining healthy habits is hard but living life as a slave to crappy habits is much harder. Living life while being sick, fat, miserable, and nearly dead, covered in acne, unable to sleep from overeating, and having constant intrusive thoughts about food – that’s no living at all. I’ve been there, done that, no thank you!

Food is not my master. I belong to God.

God commanded me to honor Him with my body. He said: put a knife to your throat if you’re given to gluttony. So, yes, gluttony and suicide are the same, and the Bible teaches that suicide is even better than gluttony. 

So, here’s my prayer.

A prayer for relief from the binge-eating disorder. Dear God, I am weak, and you are strong. I belong to you, and food is not my master. I can do all things through Christ, and the sin of gluttony has no power over me. Father, help me fight food temptations, which surround me everywhere I go. Heal me from my binge-eating disorder, God. Let me establish and maintain strong food boundaries and practice a simple “no thank you” without feeling awkward or guilty in social situations. Let me only choose the kind of food that brings into my body the nutritional assets needed for my optimal health. Let me only eat as much food as my body truly needs for its optimal health. Let me eat slowly and mindfully with gratitude and peace so that my body can intake, process, and benefit from the food I’m eating. I pray these things in the name of Jesus, my lord and savior who Himself fasted on water for 40 days in the wilderness to honor you, God. Amen. 

At 1 pm. I ate carbs for energy: my tiny tiny potatoes with tiny mushrooms. At 1:20 pm, I left to go to the Farmer’s Market on Buford Hwy. It’s 1:49 pm. I just arrived, and I’m meditating before going into the grocery store so that I don’t start grabbing food mindlessly. I have my list of grains, veggies, fruits, and herbs, and I don’t need anything else!

My shopping at the Farmer’s Market on Buford Hwy was such a blessing! No meat, fish, cookies, or any other unwanted food was calling my name. It was pleasant and peaceful. I bought what was on my list and nothing else. I have papayas, watermelon, limes, grapes, bananas, pineapple, apples, pears, cabbage, garlic, herbs, celery, mushrooms, Russian pickles and buckwheat, various squashes, eggplant, and tomatoes. They didn’t have the flourless organic tortillas I wanted, so I’m going to Sprouts. 

My energy is high and I feel excellent! 

It’s 3:35 pm and I’m at Sprouts on Alpharetta Hwy. They do have the tortillas I want, awesome! I’m going to get another watermelon, a bag of oranges, some berries, and fresh basil, as well.

It’s 4:20 pm, and I’m home. I’m unloading my trunk, a few bags at a time. I’m grateful for all these groceries. My heart is filled with joy that I am able to do my own grocery shopping, car unloading, cooking, cleaning, and normal everyday life stuff. I praise God for my health. 

It’s 5:43 pm, and my first burrito is ready! It’s delicious, beautiful, and so unique. I had never had a burrito. But today I did. OMG, how awesome are these plant-based, flourless, organic burritos! I made two but the fillings were the same, just in different order and proportions. 

My burrito fillings:

  • baby Bella mushrooms
  • Russian semi-pickles 
  • garlic
  • tomatoes 
  • cucumbers 
  • bell peppers
  • olives
  • spinach 
  • green onions
  • fresh basil
  • fresh dill
  • fresh parsley 
  • original garlic hummus

Its’s 6:23 pm. I’m taking a walk outside, eating my second burrito on the river and enjoying every bite! I feel so good, though I’ve been active for 5.5 hours straight! I only wanted to pee one time in 5.5 hours. I’m now walking up and down the hills, it feels as good as it normally does. On a typical day, I walk between 10,000 and 25,000 steps.

Today, I realized that there’s another factor in food addiction development – it’s social media. Swiping the images of food every day multiple times a day is a huge step to becoming addicted to food, experiencing intrusive thoughts about food, and, worst of all, becoming the victim of FOMO: fear of missing out on food. 

It’s 7:20 pm. I finished my 4254 steps for today, pooped easily, and took a shower, which was pleasant, not tiring. I surely didn’t run out of breath! I love this day. My pooping schedule is normalizing. My body is returning to its healthy balanced functioning.

Now, FaceTime with María, which I’m excited about! I’m going to tell her about my water fasting adventures today.

I talked to María on FaceTime for 1 hour and 49 minutes and it was a blessing to catch-up. Also, I cleaned my entire kitchen, for which I’m so grateful, it’s now ready for my next cooking adventure! I unpacked and set up my new lap desk, and I love it. Now I can take my laptop and easily work on the river! 

I feel energized and clear-headed, I feel renewed and healthy! I feel ready to clean my home tomorrow as far as my regular vacuuming and dusting, and dye my hair, as well as do my pedicure and manicure.

I’m going to change my bedsheets and finish reading the Devotionals book during my walk outside. My period is almost finished, too, so it’s time to work out again and enjoy the new me! I fit into all my clothes perfectly. I am beyond grateful and excited. Also, I know this water fast was an excellent deposit into the future me, the me twenty years from now who will be grateful for the healthy habit of fasting. 

11:14 pm. I’m still not even tired so I read a book for a while and now I’m watching this interview with Dr. John McDougall. I’m continuing to learn about water fasting, nutrition, and healthy long-term living. I want to be fully functional when I’m 80 and 90. I want to be slim, fit, flexible, and strong. I want to be energized, mentally able, and medications-free. 

This has been an awesome day.

I feel like I’m back to my normal energy. Next, I must establish an eating schedule for 6 am, 12 pm, and 6 pm to avoid eating all day or snacking all day, and craving food all day. I plan to make more burritos in the future. However, I must get used to eating fruit for breakfast and soup for lunch first. So, for now, no more burritos.

Refeeding Day 3 May 7th 2020

It’s 6 am, and I’m up eating my breakfast, which is watermelon. I slept really well, all night, I’m rested and feel ready to rock the day. My goal is to do all my chores, workout, and avoid eating in between my mealtimes. It’s a beautiful sunny day. My heart is filled with gratitude, peace, and joy. God is good. He gave me a great body to bless me and He asked me to honor Him with my body.

I feel like I’m finally learning how to actually do that. 

I was thinking: a powerful contributor to food addiction is its social aspect. All get-togethers with friends happen over food, and in the Christian community, it’s mostly junk food filled with deadly crap.

This wasn’t the case for me in Russia because my friends and I always went to museums, theaters, performances of all sorts, Art galleries, and concerts. So, I need to develop new habits with my friends – a hike, a trip to a theater or an art gallery, ballet, opera, symphony, museum…

The choices in Atlanta are limitless, but food should not be the only option for when we are getting together. I love learning and exploring, and we have plenty of beautiful sights to see here in Atlanta. We have many art galleries and performance art centers.

I want to get back to socializing in healthy ways, active ways, meaningful ways that educate and inspire me, not make me fat, sick, and miserable. I’ll start with kayaking and hiking.

It’s 10 am. I worked out and I’m eating my brunch, so I wasn’t able to hold on till noon on a watermelon. I feel happy and energized, I’m dancing today! 

It’s 10:11 am, and after a fiber-filled brunch, of course, I am pooping a ton: easily and happily! I love being healthy. The healthy body works perfectly! I’m grateful for my well-functioning body. Thank you, God! I feel cleansed, light, and energized! 

It’s 11:34 am. I’ve been doing all my chores today: oven is cleaned inside and outside, and so are my stove, microwave, fridge, and sink. In both bathrooms toilets are shining, and so are mirrors, sink, and counters. All trash is taken care off, bedsheets changed, laundry is on, and I am pooping again: a lot and very easily! I’m so grateful.

I still remember the constipation felt a few days back and what hard work it was to poop. God designed us perfectly. All we need to do us eat well, including consuming plenty of fiber.

I feel amazing. My skin is glowing. My body is flexible and strong. My hair is shining. I have no dandruff anymore. My nails are thick and strong. I’m filled with natural energy and joy. I’m healthy and I know it!

It’s 8:09 pm, and I did my chores, my home is clean, my bedsheets are fresh, my laundry is done, I walked 6000 steps outside up and down the hills, I had a long photoshoot for my blog today, I had dinner with my neighbor Flame, and I read my book, which is almost done. It’s been an awesome day. I won’t lie: I am hungry. So I’m thinking about what to do…. For dinner on the river, I had my soup with 20 veggies and lentils, five herbs, and Russian pickles. 

It’s 11:15 pm, and I just finished my pedicure. I ended up eating some seaweed. I still have to do my manicure so I’m about to eat a burrito before doing my nails. I’m filled with energy but really hungry. 

This afternoon, Abide, a Christian meditation app, launched a meditation lullaby with my voice narration. Everyone is loving it. I’m so surprised! I gotta do more meditations. This is a good reminder that my Christian meditations have already helped thousands of women heal. Maybe I’ll do a meditation about food and binge-eating healing?

Refeeding Day 4 May 8th 2020 

It’s 9 am and I’m waking up with a little bit of “food hangover” realizing this: there’s one more thing I need to work on, and it has nothing to do with external influences. This one thing is my OCD. Doing a repetitive task that brings an expected positive result, doing it over and over again is the symptom of my OCD. OCD was why I overate yesterday…

Binge-Eating Disorder Unmasked

My expectations from Binge-eating:

  • It will make me feel good
  • It will make me feel in control
  • It will make me feel comforted 
  • It will make me feel satisfied 

My actual outcomes from Binge-eating:

  • It makes me feel awful 
  • It makes me feel enslaved
  • It make me feel overwhelmed 
  • It makes me feel angry and bitter

There’s a lot to examine in regards to my old eating habits. I’m glad I have a clean new start to begin building better eating habits now. I’m thankful to have the ability to observe, understand, and process all these breakthrough findings and difficult feelings.

I hope that my personal journey will help others learn and heal. Know thyself – that’s the key to a good life. And we are all complex beings, so knowing me is something I’m aiming for, yet it’s a process and not an event. It takes time and commitment to know thyself. It takes effort. 

I’m going to have to deal with this by becoming more mindful. Only mindfulness can help me combat this issue associated with OCD. And the question I must be asking for this is the following: “Am I continuing to eat this because I’m still hungry or am I eating for emotional reasons right now?” If I am hungry, I must ask: “Do I need any other nutrients since I’ve already eaten this particular food and received its nutritional value as planned?”

I’m going to have a spinach banana smoothie for breakfast now and take a walk. I’m grateful for this awareness and alertness. The most important thing is not to fall into the self-condemnation trap where shame awaits. This journey is imperfect and I’m imperfect on this complicated journey with food. I’m figuring this out, and the fact that I haven’t figured it out yet does mean that I’m failing.

I’m willing to stick with this. 

One more thing: Dr. Klaper in his vídeos says that he doesn’t even recommend portion control and he advises people to eat whenever they are hungry. This doesn’t work for me only because I personally do not approve of my own overeating. I don’t like the heavy feeling after out-of-control eating. I don’t enjoy going to bed full but I love going to bed feeling hungry and light. 

With this breakthrough, I’d say it’s a wrap.

My food journey has been documented in great detail for three weeks. It’s been an adventure with so many lessons learned! I’m grateful that God called me to do this and walked me through every step.

Now, it’s up to me how I will treat my new, cleansed, lighter, healthier body. This is everyday work. It requires awareness, mindfulness, and self-control. I deserve the investment of my own time, energy, and effort. My health deserves such an investment.

Nutrition-rich organic food in moderation combined with exercise and sleep is the only medicine I’m willing to take.

It’s Friday, nearly noon.

I’m walking outside, in the rain, up and down the hill, enjoying every second, every breath, and every bite of energy I have. I look around and see beautiful bright green bushes and hot pink roses around me in the neighborhood. These are brand-new. Yet, just a few weeks ago, our neighborhood was hard-pruned, which was ugly and painful to look at: all bushes were cut down to the bone, only sticks were left. Naked ugly sticks in the ground… Why did landscapers do that? Because the bushes in my neighborhood were unhealthy. So, a radical action was taken, and for a period of time, it was difficult to deal with because of all the ugliness. However, the new, fresh, bright green, healthy bushes are gorgeous now, and I love looking at them. They are flourishing, and I enjoy witnessing their incredible transformation.

Water fast is like that: it’s a radical action of hard-pruning bad eating habits and addictions ought to allow the body to be healthy again and flourish. I am flourishing now though fasting on water was ugly.

My food journal ends but my food journey continues.

With God, I can do all things! 

My 48-Hour Water Fast May 2020

I love how fasting on water makes me feel, so I am on a journey to make water fasting a consistent lifestyle-improving habit. It’s instead of all the time I am not spending going to doctors, pharmacies, hospitals, surgeries, aesthetic centers, botox appointments, and whatever else other 37-year-old women typically do. Og yes, watching TV. I don’t have a TV. To stay young and in shape, fasting is what I want to do regularly.

I’m fully committed! 

Water Fast Day 1 May 22nd 2020

Hunger: no hunger waking up; it’s 7:15 am and my stomach is growling a little but I’ve learned to recognize real hunger and I know I’m not hungry. 

Feelings: I feel empowered and inspired by the fact that I care to take these challenges and do what it takes to help my body with a regular internal cleanup through autophagy. 

It’s 10:48 am. I walked and jogged, took my car to get it’s first service, went to Walmart and bought three gifts for my little 4-year-old neighbor, and I’m feeling excellent! There’s of course a strong smell of food at Walmart but I’m neither bothered nor tempted. Glory to God! 

It’s 4:44 pm and my waterfast is going really well. I’m not hungry physically but emotionally I am: I love the plant-based food I cook, full of flavors and colors!!! Yum! But I do deserve a break from eating. My body deserves special care. So, I’m staying true to my goals of autophagy and deep cleanse. In the meantime, I had a meeting, took a trip to a store, did some fun activities with the little girl next-door to see if she loved her birthday gifts, and I cooked! I made roasted carrots, Brussels sprouts, sweet potatoes, and pumpkin. Also, I made boiled potatoes and a potato soup. All of that is ready waiting for me in the fridge!

Right now, I’m cooking beans and while they are being done, I’m unloading the dishwasher. Then, I’ll be working out. 

It’s 7:38 pm. I worked out a ton, I hula hopped for 45 min, and I ran, which is super-new. I had never been able to run this long ever in my life without getting out of breath and experiencing pains and aches but today I ran a lot, freely, no aches, no pains, no getting out of breath, and all on a 24-hour water fast! Wow! 

I am not tired at all so I’m going to do one last workout if the day, take a shower, read, and go to sleep. I’m really impressed with what a water fast can do for an almost 40-year-old woman. I’m grateful! 

I feel no hunger pains, no nausea, no headache, no light-headiness, no growling, nothing. I feel on fire! I feel excited! I feel healthy and light!

Poop: none

Bed time: 9:30 pm 

Water Fast Day 2 May 23rd 2020

Hunger: hungry a little bit waking up; a little bit thirsty; no nausea or light-headiness but my heart is pounding a little. I got up to pee at 1:30 am and had no dizziness. I’m feeling really good! Leg workout in bed and I’ll get up slowly. 

Feelings: I feel empowered and encouraged by the fact that I didn’t give in to any food temptations yesterday while cooking a lot of delish food. My home smells like the best restaurant ever. Every time I enter into my home, the strong smell of roasted potatoes with garlic and vegetable soup hit my senses. But I’m remaining committed to my goals. I’m grateful for my ability and desire to take these health challenges and do what it takes to help my body with a regular internal cleanup through autophagy via water fasting. I can run now, my body is getting healthier and healthier every day in every way. Thank God! 

Poop 6:15 am – easy, huge, no smell at all 

It’s 6:36 am and I just finished my workout on the mat. I feel a bit dizzy since I worked out on the floor so I’m taking a short rest before I go for my 10,000 step walk run. 

It’s a beautiful and peaceful morning. The birds are singing loudly, I love it! I had made my bed when I got up after sleeping, so I’m taking this short rest on the couch in my office. My windows are open and I enjoy the fresh air after it rained at night. Ok, time to walk and run! 

It’s 9:05 am and I’m taking another short break after my 3500 steps outside, standing arm workout, hair wash, makeup, and preparation for my photoshoot. It’s at 9:30 am. What a beautiful sunny day! 

It’s noon. I just finished my photoshoot and I’m about to take a nap. We started at 9:30 am and soon the floating dock outside my front door in the river got really busy: there was a neighbor making hotdogs and giving them to kayakers and tubers, there was a gentleman fishing, and two leading getting their floats ready… There is a lot going on today – it’s the Memorial Day weekend Saturday. I am sticking to my fast until this evening and will eat after my 48-hours water fast ends. 

I’m watching some water fasting science videos and I’m so glad that I’m doing this fast! 

It’s 3:50 pm and my stomach is growling just because I had to go to the kitchen and pull out of the fridge grapes, strawberries, etc. I don’t like cold fruit. So, with 2 hours and 10 min before my water fast end and meal, my body is growling in anticipation! It’s ok, I can wait. I’m committed to my ultimate goal of optimal health. 

Food is not my master! 

I pooped at 5:15 pm. That’s excellent! 

I ate my meal and enjoyed every little bit: homemade 22-veggies soup with added avocado, olives, herbs, and lemon, as well as fresh fruit. Yummy and so healthy!

It’s 10:30 pm. I ran at night, I pooped again at 9:40 pm, yaaay, and I finished my 10000 steps. I’ll read in bed for a bit.

Very grateful for this 48 hours water fast! 

My 48-Hour Water Fast June 2020

The water fast last month was great, and I want to do two days this month. Preparation: I ate mushrooms, potatoes, cilantro, green onions, red onions, dill, tomato, avocados, beets, black grapes, and blackberries.

I’m fully committed! 

Water Fast Day 1 June 22nd 2020

I woke up on my own at 7 am but stayed in bed lifting my legs and doing some exercises for my feet as well as inner thighs. I drank water, did my hygiene routine, and I’m outside walking 10000 steps. I’m feeling excellent and excited! It’s a sunny morning and my neighborhood smells like fresh green grass.  

It’s 4:37 pm, and I’m so so hungry! But I’m definitely sticking to my water fasting plan. The hunger will disappear tomorrow. I’m writing on my blog finishing the list of 52 Devotionals. I’m a bit dizzy but I’m home so it’s fine. I can do this! 

It’s 5:29 pm and I finished two blogs. I’m super-hungry but my health mission matters so I’m staying committed to my decision to fast on water. 

It’s 9 pm, and I have a terrible headache. My hunger is in my stomach so I know it’s not real hunger. Not much noise anymore from my body demanding food. It’s settled. But I do feel light-headed. It’s good for my fat to be used! I’m going to bed. It was a very productive day, and I just finished publishing another blog post. No pooping today, though I worked out a lot.

Water Fast Day 2 June 23rd 2020

It’s 6:30 am, and I’m waking up on my own, without an alarm. I feel good, very thirsty. My glass of fresh water is right here so I already drank some. No hunger, no body noises, no aches but I have not gotten up yet, I’m still lying down. 

I want to capture what happens to a human body during fasting: autophagy, ketosis, and epigenetics. All of these health-altering benefits are additional to the weight loss benefits of water fasting. Also, this time I want to expand on the impact of water fasting on food addiction. 

I’m learning about the stages of fasting on water.

Water Fasting Stages

The stages of fasting outlined below are based off of a water-only fast, which doesn’t include any food or tea or coffee. Nothing but water! 

“If there were a pill that effectively treated high blood pressure, overcame Type II diabetes, consistently produced dramatic improvements in autoimmune diseases such as lupus, rheumatoid arthritis and psoriasis, and provided effective relief for asthma attacks and migraine headaches it would be seen as a wonder drug of the highest order. Yet, such profound improvements in these medical conditions, and many others, are routinely seen during a water fast lasting more than a few days.”

“For the first 24 to 48 hours after beginning a water fast, the body burns off circulating blood sugar and sugar stored in the muscles and liver in the form of glycogen. The “real” metabolic fast does not begin until one metabolizes their blood sugar, in approximately 2 to 3 days. At that time, the body begins to burn fat tissue for fuel. When that happens, molecules called ketones enter the blood circulation. These ketones have some very interesting properties.

For the faster, the main welcome property of ketones is that they suppress hunger. By day four or five of a water fast, hunger is usually gone and is replaced by a feeling of great well-being. 

Why more energy, and not less? 

So much of the energy that the body uses all day goes to digesting our food including muscular contractions of the intestine, chemical energy used to synthesize stomach acid, bile, and digestive enzymes as well as the billions of immune cells in the intestinal lining that interrogate the chemical nature of the food going by in the digestive tract. When that function is no longer required on a fast, all that energy is freed up and people surprisingly – but predictably – feel very light and energetic”

During a fast, the body is in “Full Energy Conservation Mode” and it does not want to spend precious chemical energy on chaotic, heat-generating, activities, such as inflammatory reactions and growing tumor tissue. During a fast, hot angry joints in rheumatoid arthritis, gout and other inflammatory joint diseases (predictably) cool down, inflamed plaques of psoriasis in the skin are becalmed, and wounds in and on the body heal extremely well. If malignant breast cells are multiplying in tissues, the fasting body generates molecules called sirtuins which put the breaks on cancer growth.

Water fasting cleanses the body on a deep, cellular level

All of us, in our body cells, have remnant molecules of every restaurant meal, fast food snack, and processed food dessert we have ever eaten. There are flavorings, colorings, preservatives, dough conditioners, stabilizers, and thousands of other compounds that compose a chemical soup of modern cuisine in all the cells in our body. These substances accumulate in our tissues over time, contributing to feelings of chronic fatigue and bodily dysfunction. 

A water fast has the effect of “taking your cells through the car wash” where day after day, nothing but pure water washes through each and every cell. This markedly lowers the concentrations of the foreign, disruptive molecules. 

Thus, it is no wonder that people predictably emerge from a water fast feeling lighter and cleaner on the inside because they really are.

The water fast is broken in a gentle matter, starting with vegetable juices or fruit chunks like watermelon, and progressing through phases of gradually increasing fiber content, namely raw vegetables, steamed vegetables, and eventually denser foods such as rice and beans.

One of the greatest benefits of a fast is that it “re-tunes” the tongue’s taste buds through a process called neuroadaption. Whole, natural foods begin to taste really delicious again. This opens the way for one to retool their dietary choices and let a truly health-promoting food stream of whole, plant-based foods pour through the body every day, thus creating lasting and glowing health.

Thanks to molecules called ketones, by day four or five of a water fast, hunger is usually gone and is replaced by a feeling of great well being.

Dr. Klaper on Water Fasting

Stage 1: Day 1-2

Stage one lasts for the first couple of days of the fast or about 12-48 hours from your last meal. Usually, it is a good idea to put some planning and preparation into how and when you will start the water fast. Try selecting a start day and time and then make preparations in your schedule for the duration of your fast.

What’s Happening With Your Body: Battery Save Mode

Several things happen at the cellular level that cause hunger and fatigue during this first stage. When you’re eating regularly, your body breaks down glucose to get the energy it needs to function properly. While you’re fasting, your body needs to produce sugar for energy, so it begins the process called gluconeogenesis.

During gluconeogenesis, your liver converts non-carbohydrate materials like lactate, amino acids, and fats into glucose. As your body goes into “battery save mode,” your basal metabolic rate, or BMR, becomes more efficient and uses less energy.

This power-saving process includes lowering your heart rate and blood pressure. At this stage, you may feel drained. However, if you stick it out for a little longer, some of that lost energy will return.

Benefits: Mental Strength and Heart Health

Fasting can be difficult these first few days, but there are mental and physical benefits. Mentally, the act of fasting is an excellent way to exercise your willpower. Similar to the strength runners might feel after pushing their body to run that extra mile, people who choose to fast can feel strength as they fight through those natural urges to eat. Physically, there are incredible cleansing and heart-health benefits taking place, too. As BMR lowers, fat in the blood starts to disappear as it’s metabolized for energy. This process promotes a healthy heart and improves cholesterol levels by boosting HDL levels.

The Stages of Fasting: What Happens To Your Body When You Fast?

Water Fasting and Autophagy

Autophagy is the natural, regulated mechanism of the cell that removes unnecessary or disfunctional components. It allows the orderly degradation and recycling of cellular components. Three forms of autophagy are commonly described: macroautophagy, microautophagy, and chaperone-mediated autophagy.

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Autophagy is a natural regeneration process that occurs at a cellular level in the body, reducing the likelihood of contracting some diseases as well as prolonging lifespan.

It is difficult to measure autophagy outside of a lab. However, experts do agree that the autophagy process initiates in humans after 18-20 hours of fasting on water. Maximal benefits occur at about the 48–72 hour mark of the water fast.

In 2016, Japanese scientist Yoshinori Ohsumi won the Nobel Prize for his discoveries of the mechanisms of autophagy: human body cells eating themselves. Since then, drug companies and academics have raced to find drugs that will stimulate the process of autophagy. Yet, the process can be induced naturally by fasting on water.

Water Fasting and Epigenétics

Aging is characterized by extensive remodeling of epigenetic patterns, which has been implicated in the physiopathology of age-related diseases. Nutrition plays a significant role in modulating the epigenome, and a growing amount of data indicate that dietary changes can modify the epigenetic marks associated with aging.

Aging can be defined as a time-dependent and progressive decline in functional status, which ultimately results in death. This complex and multifaceted phenomenon, which is a major risk factor for a wide range of non-communicable and chronic diseases, is the result of a complex interplay between genetic, environmental, and stochastic variables. While some researchers have suggested that aging is genetically programmed, others sustain that it is the result of the progressive accumulation of damage coupled with a decline in maintenance.

Caloric restriction (CR), i.e., the reduction of caloric intake without causing malnutrition, has proven to be by far the most effective intervention that can extend the maximum lifespan. 

The beneficial effects of CR occur through an extremely wide range of molecular mechanisms, largely overlapping with aging hallmarks, among which epigenetic factors have recently gained interest.

The three main categories of epigenetic marks, DNA methylation (DNAm), post-translational histone modifications (PTHMs), and small non-coding RNAs, are considered as central regulators of the aging process.

Epigenetics patterns are greatly remodeled during aging, and this phenomenon has been implicated in the development of multiple age-related diseases. One important characteristic of epigenetic factors is their plasticity: epigenetic changes are reversible and they can be modulated by a wide range of environmental factors, including lifestyle habits and dietary interventions.

Epidenetics and water fasting

This is the first study to demonstrate that fasting induces changes in DNA methylation. DNA methylation is the most studied epigenetic feature and was initially considered to be mitotically stable. However, today we experience an increased understanding of environmental regulation of DNA methylation in adult life, and recent studies have shown that aging, exercise, and dietary factors can alter site-specific DNA methylation in humans, across different tissues. Epigenetic modifications have further been associated with differential gene expression and altered metabolism in key diabetic tissues, including adipose tissue. The establishment of epigenetic modifications during fetal development is dependent on maternal lifestyle, placental function, and nutrient supply [19] and may link an adverse prenatal environment with a higher risk of developing metabolic diseases in postnatal life.

Fasting on Water and Epigenetics

Researchers, in a groundbreaking study out of Temple University in Philadelphia, found it has to do with an epigenetic phenomenon known as “methylation drift.” The results were published in the journal Nature Communications. 

To conceive of this breakthrough, we must understand epigenetics. This is the system in which genes are expressed or suppressed, depending on conditions in the environment. Epigenetic changes help an organism adapt to their environment and pass on adaptations to offspring.

We may contain genes for certain traits, but if they don’t match environmental situations, they may never be expressed.

DNA methylation is the process by which genes are expressed or suppressed. These are chemical markers that essentially activate certain genes by tagging them. The tags will tell a cell what type it will become, whether a blood or skin cell, or what-have-you. They also tell it what operations it will perform and when to perform them.

It’s important when DNA is replicated whether the right genes are turned on or off. Normal methylation is important for our growth and development. But abnormal methylation can cause certain diseases such as lupus, muscular dystrophy, and cancer. As we grow older, methylation begins to drift. Also called epigenetic drift, this is when a buildup of tags occurs within a certain gene, making its expression less pronounced.

These results may have an impact on treating or preventing age-related diseases such as heart disease, cancer, Alzheimer’s, and diabetes. It might also open up avenues for anti-aging medicine. The benefits to intermittent fasting include possible longevity, better insulin sensitivity, and help warding off neurodegenerative diseases such as Alzheimer’s. This study would tend to strengthen those claims.

Water Fasting and DNA Methylation

Epigenetic modifications via dietary restriction (DR) may lead to epigenetic programming, providing protection against age-associated diseases, which in turn could lead to reduced morbidity and increased lifespan.

Recent studies have shown that aging possess an epigenetic component, with many age-associated epigenetic changes underlying hallmarks of aging.

For example, aging has been implicated in alterations to DNA methylation, to imbalance in histone modifications, to chromatin remodeling, and with an involvement of many miRNAs.

As such, it follows that aging may also be driven by extensive epigenomic remodeling, which may in turn promote the development of age-associated diseases.

Because epigenetic modifications may be modifiable by environmental changes and exhibit immense plasticity, they could be used transduce external signals and regulate aging through gene regulation.

It has been widely reported that dietary restrictions can promote changes in gene expression and attenuate age-associated changes across many organisms.

Dietary Restrictions and Epigenetics

Water Fasting and Food Addiction

Water fasting is an extremely powerful tool to help overcome addictions caused by smoking, drinking, and drugs in general, as well as any food addictions, such as those caused by sugar, caffeine, chocolate, flavor enhancers, and others. Unfortunately, the list of food addictions is almost endless.

Addictions are composed of both physical and emotional elements.

Physically, addictive substances cause changes to your biochemistry which induce your body to demand more of the given substance in order to sustain homeostasis – the stability of your metabolism.

Emotionally, addictive substances manipulate the way you relate to food by playing on the ego’s tendency to become attached to objects in the world around you (read “Facing your ego“). You feel like you want or even need the given substance.

Because the physical and emotional elements of addiction are so closely intertwined, it’s all too easy to find yourself in a downward spiral. 

Fasting works like a “reset” button to bring addiction to an end.

By not ingesting anything except pure water, you finally have a chance to start living without the influence of any outside factors. You can just be. The beauty of it is that, at the same time, water fasting also activates your cleansing and healing metabolism. This allows your body to start the process of recalibration toward new homeostasis: one in which you have no need for addictive substances or behaviors.

Your body will guide you toward what it already knows is best for you. Given that, ultimately, it is the emotional addiction that underlies any physical addiction, emotional withdrawal symptoms usually appear first: cravings.

Since addictive substances usually create toxic byproducts, the cleansing of a water fast also tends to result in physical withdrawal symptoms.

This is in addition to the more general detox symptoms of fasting on water, which are caused by the cleansing of accumulated environmental and metabolic toxins. Although these can be nasty – causing headaches, nausea, blurred vision, and severe swings of mood – they are rarely dangerous.

For those with eating disorders, water fasting can certainly help to alleviate and even overcome the abuse of food.

The Impact of Water Fasting of Food Addictions

It’s 11:24 am, and I just came back from the DeKalb Farmers Market. I bought a rainbow: purple cauliflower, red apples, berries, and tomatoes, green kale, spinach, broccoli, and grapes, yellow bananas, mangoes, and honeydew, and orange mandarins and papaya. I also got a watermelon -to break my water fast with it.

I feel good. I did a 40 min drive to the store, 45 min shopping and checkout, and a 50 min drive home. Now, I’m going to unload my car and finish my walk. I have 6500 steps to go in order to reach my daily goal of 10000 steps. I feel good! 

It’s 12:29 pm, and I’m feeling good! Put all my groceries away already. I’m grateful for this water fast. 

It’s 1:20 pm, and I’m walking outside with weights after handling some business at home. I do feel hungry but it’s tolerable. It was especially hard to put my beautiful deliciously smelling produce away. The watermelon, tomatoes, and berries all called my name. The papayas I bought are both so ripe! I can’t wait to eat them but my water fast comes first. I pooped very well at 8:30 am today: solid dark red from the beets I ate two days ago, all came out as one peace easily. Good!

I’m noticing that the more I practice fasting, the easier fasting gets for me. At first, it was a shock to my body but now, after so much experience, fasting causes minor inconveniences, not a shock.

It’s 3:55 pm, and I just took a shower after finishing my 10000 steps and making a trip to Whole Foods for some bread, organic hummus, cucumbers, and bell peppers. I then quickly ran to Publix for some Spanish olives. Now, my fridge is full of colorful organic food, and I’m ready to breakfast tomorrow: to break my fast. I’m feeling a bit dizzy so I’m now lying down and watching interviews with plant-based vegan doctors on YouTube. It’s been a rainy day with some sun, and I’m feeling very serene. It’s divine! 

It’s 8:33 pm and I’ve watched almost all plant-based video interviews on the Love Gianna channel. I fell asleep for about an hour but woke up on my own ready for more learning. I’m just drinking water and watching an interview about The Nutritarian Died with Dr. Fuhrman.

It’s 9:20 pm, I did another ab workout because I feel really good. One thing I forgot to mention was that I carried all my grocery bags and my huge watermelon – all by myself today. I didn’t ask anyone for help.

Sometimes, a neighbor would see me unloading my car and offer to help. Today, I did it in the rain and loved it! I finished preparing my meal, which is waiting for me. I’ll eat at 10 pm, after 48 hours of fasting on water. I won’t be waiting until morning. I prepared watermelon chunks, apricots, mandarin, green and black grapes, blackberries, blueberries, raspberries, strawberries, and a banana.

I’m very thankful for my journey of fasting.

This time, I experienced no bad body odor, no bad mouth taste, and no constant rapid heartbeat. I’m getting used to fasting, and this will serve me for the rest of my life. I’m currently cooking in an InstaPot my multigrain meal for tomorrow: rice, lentils, beans, potato broth, herbs, and bay leaf. It smells amazing!

I’m excited about my plant-based meal!

It’s 10:13 pm. I’m eating my fruit. I just shared with María that I finished another 48-hour water fast. I wrote to her: “It’s no struggle. There’s no more emotional pain or crying. I feel like my understanding of food, my food history, my food environment, emotional manipulation I experienced through food as a child, beatings during meals growing up, then all the American experiences with food being used to try to fit in – this understanding and working through my journey to own my own mind – this is liberating, and I am strong in Christ!”

It’s 10:49 pm, and I finished eating. I ate mindfully, cherishing every bite and paying attention to satiety. I’m learning what “being full” feels like. In the last week or so, I left my food on a plate twice because I was “full” and tonight, I left some watermelon chunks on my plate after eating all the berries and fruits. This journey has been so healing and helpful!

I started my period. I’m going to bed. I’m at my ideal weight now. Most importantly, I’m so comfortable fasting that it will be no problem to maintain my water fasting weight loss results moving forward.

My Water Fasting Results

The first result of fasting on water for five days was weight loss. I lost over 15 lb, and now, in June, I am at my ideal weight. Slowly and steadily – that’s how it all melted away! Though a couple of months is not that slow after all…

The second result of water fasting is that I stopped eating vegan junk, such as vegan butter, vegan cheese, vegan ice cream, etc. I eat whole foods, such as veggies, fruits, nuts, seeds, and whole grains. I do eat legumes still but rarely and in moderation.

The third water fasting result was that I realized my binge-eating disorder (BED) and accepted the fact that I have it. There are self-condemnation and shame associated with it, and the process of dealing with this truth was extremely emotional, complex, complicated, and painful. What helped me face the BED was knowing what God says about me: I am healed! I know that food is not my master. I belong to God. With Christ, I can do all things, even overcome my BED!

The fourth result of fasting on water was my courageous trip to the deep and dark dungeon of my childhood trauma to explore my unhealthy relationship with even very healthy foods. I went back to the letter of forgiveness I wrote to my mother. I had to forgive again and again. I had to face those childhood abuse situations where food was involved. I had to forgive, forgive, forgive… It’s a process, a journey, not an event.

The fifth water fasting result was empowerment. I got empowered by doing all this hard work and experiencing healing. And I can tell you: empowerment is even more valuable to me than weight loss, though water fasting weight loss worked really well for me, as you can see from my picture! I lost belly fat, which is the biggest source of inflammation and cancer. So, I optimized my overall long-term health.

I did not do it on my own. God was with me.

We did it together!

Water Fasting Results

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